Ugh. Today's my first day here …
Ugh. Today's my first day here and I feel like if I don't write something I might explode. My whole life has been in an …
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Blueglitter 
4:24am, September 10, 2009
I wrote this on 28th December 2008. Just a month ago. While these feelings are still there, they are not the only thing I feel right now. I have positive feelings too. I am posting this in my journal to remind me that the bad times do really come and go.
Rainbow of self loathing
Red with searing heat, pain so clean cutting you don’t notice at first
Over the years the scars dull to a violet anger and rage that you can’t pinpoint
To survive and to quell the eruption they get pushed away, forced down, trampled on
They compact and compress into an impenetrable deepest black
I carry this everywhere in the palm of my hand and the pit of my stomach
I love its pebble-like smoothness, am in awe of its power
It is a part of me, it is my friend
My pain, my survival, my self loathing
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I feel this way too. We push our feelings down because no one will listen to us when we are little, no one seems to care, the only thing we can do is push the pain away. We can heal those feelings now by going back. It is great that you are writing this.
fragileteacup
Yes feelings do come and go and it is important to express and write about them good for you
nicoleacola32