The whole story.... (as far as …
The whole story.... (as far as my family goes...) Part I I've had issues with grieving for my family for quite some …
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AmberLynnC 
7:46pm, November 18, 2009
As I was walking today, I suddenly started to have thoughts about suicide... I was feeling perfectly calm, and then these thoughts just came into my mind. I started weighing the pros and cons of dying, thinking about how to I could do it... This is really scaring me... I've never just started thinking about suicide when I was feeling so calm, or when there really wasn't anything going on...
Last night, I started scratching at my arm; I didn't even realize that I was doing anything. My uncle kept drawing my attention to it, asking me if I was scratching myself, but I didn't really even comprehend that. I've never really had that happen either...
I don't know what's causing this, and I'm scared... I don't know what to do right now; I'm feeling pretty sure that I can stay safe, but what if the thoughts get stronger or more intense? I've thought about maybe telling my uncle, but that scares me too. I don't know how he would react if I told him that I was starting to have thoughts of suicide, even to the point where I was considering how it could be done... I know he's really stressed out right now, and I don't want him to worry, and I just really don't know what to do...
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amber, i would call the counselor/therapist as soon as you can....didnt they have you take more of your medicine? if so this can do that...you need to call someone...if you want to talk to me let me know
love ya,,,,alice
hotdogalice
Alice,
I did end up telling my uncle, and I e-mailed my counselor last night, and I'm supposed to be meeting with her tomorrow. So, she is aware of what's going on right now...
I hope we can talk soon.
AmberLynnC
HELLO AMBER,HOPE YOU ARE FEELING BETTER,FIND OUT ABOUT THE MED AT TIMES THEY CAN MAKE MORE DEPRESSED.BE STRONG ,THERE WAS A TIME WHEN I DID THE SAME,IT WAS 'THE LORD'THAT SAVED ME,FAITH IN JESUS CHRIST,PRAYERS,AND READING THE SCRIPTURES,IT WAS NA LONG WALK BUT BY THE GRACE OF THE HEAVENLY FATHER AND FAITH IN THE LORD JESUS ,I MADE IT,YOU CAN TOO,YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL AND HAVE A LONG LIFE IN FRONT OF YOU,IS THERE SOMEONE OLDER TO PRAY FOR YOU,GIVE YOU A HUG,SPEND TIME WITH YOU,ENCOURAGE YOU,TRY TO FIND A LOCAL SUPPORT GROUP.LOTS OF LOVE LUCY..
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