Journal Entry for June 22, 2009
June 22, 2009 4:09pm
Progress
40 %
Goal End Date is May 25, 09 182 days ago.
Current Weight (Lbs)
151
BeachBumHI
3:42pm, October 8, 2009
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About Me
BeachBumHI
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About Me
I'm 28, work as an office assitant, and am married to a wonderful guy. We have 2 dogs, Roxy and Jake, and 2 cats, Charlie and Morgan.
I'm 28, work as an office assitant, and am married to a wonderful guy. We have 2 dogs, Roxy and Jake, and 2 cats, Charlie and Morgan.
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thank you! i've been hiding from all of my childhood issues for a long time, and Im just now starting to work through them...it's a long road, but there are a lot of awesome people here that make it just a little bit easier! giant hugs to you!
I’m With You
I know it is hard to understand why bad things happen to innocent people. I just keep telling myself that someday i will be able to ask god why. I have also seen how he has blessed me through these trials too. but I totally understand. Write is you need to talk. Annalee
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hi sis sorry i am late want to chat
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no i dont understand or respect that stand either. I read a couple of his journal entries - very anti-women in places.
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Close Sexual Abuse
I was molested by my brother when I was 7. He was 12 or 13. I only remember it happening once, but for a time afterwards, he would beg me to be alone with him. I adamently said no. He also acted inappropriately with a young friend of mine at the time. I told my parents about 8 years ago, and they told me that experimentation is normal and to get over it. Although I haven't seen or spoken to my abuser in 8 years, they continue to have a relationship with him. I hate them for that.
Treatments
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- I feel like the dosage isnt high enough but Ill see my psychiatrist soon to talk about it.
- Art Too Soon to Tell
- My therapist has had me try art therapy a few times. The therapy itself is still new.
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- I feel like the dosage isnt high enough but Ill see my psychiatrist soon to talk about it.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Again, the therapy is still new. The anger is coming out with a vengeance, though.
Close Incest Survivors
The word "incest" leaves such a bad taste in my mouth. I guess it should, because the definition of it is revolting. My brother molested me when I was 7, and it's taken a long time to admit I was a victim of it.
Open Pet Bereavement
My miniature schnauzer, Jasper, was 14 when I had to put him to sleep due to a brain tumor. That was 9 months ago, and up until November, I didn't think I'd ever heal from it. Then I adopted a beagle mix from the animal shelter and he's been such an angel that I know Jasper sent him to me from doggy Heaven.
Open Depression
I've suffered from depression as long as I can remember, probably since middle school. It runs in the family, but I definitely think my abuse has made it even worse. I was on Zoloft for a few years, and now I'm trying Lexapro.
Treatments
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Zoloft Working / Worked
Open Bullying
I was bullied relentlessly all through middle school. I wore glasses and braces, and didn't have name-brand clothes. Plus, I was smart and very thin, so I was an easy target. Then in high school, my awkward phase ended and I became pretty. I gained self worth and self confidence, but I still have the emotional scars from that miserable time in my life. I know people say,"Kids will be kids." But kids are cruel.
Open Female Sexual Issues
I was abused sexually as a child, so my sex drive has been greatly affected by that. Two and a half years ago, I began tearing down south so sex is painful. That has made my sex drive virtually non-existent.
Treatments
- Estrogen Cream Not Working
- This didn't work for the tear at all.
- Clobetasol Working / Worked
- This worked wonders but its not something my doctor wanted me to use forever without knowing what is actually wrong with me.
- Surgery Considering
- Im having surgery in August to cut out the area of skin surrounding the tear and then having it stitched back together.
Open Plastic Surgery
As long as I can remember, I've wanted liposuction of my chin. Up until a year or two ago, I was always very thin, but still had a double chin. I'm still not big by any means, and I still have the second chin. My plan is to spend my work bonus next summer to get liposuction.
