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p0llyanna 
9:32am, July 25, 2009
I am having trouble getting up the four flights of stairs to my apartment every day after classes without having heart palpitations.
I struggle even with walking across campus to my classes.
I avoid doing laundry because I can't lift an empty basket, let alone a full one.
I get dizzy, my head constantly aches, my hair is falling out.
I get bruises, everywhere. For no apparent reason.
I used to run four miles a day on 500 calories. I thought I was strong. Now?
I can't get up from a sitting position without holding on to something.
It has taken its toll.
I had no idea. I thought I was at my "skinny happy healthy" weight. My clothes fit again (though EXTREMELY loose). I don't weight myself.
I got weighed today. I went to the doctor to find out why I am so weak (though I already knew).
5'10". 109 pounds. BMI 15.6. Officially anorexic. Officially in the "you could die at any moment" stage.
I had no idea it was so out of control. I am about 20 pounds under my "skinny happy healthy" weight. How did this happen?
Next week, I will be working with a team of eating disorder specialists.
I have to get through this.
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u will, xxx
littlemiss
Dear POLLY,
Yes you do! And you have to vow to never let it get so beyond your control!!!!!
weinere46
You better believe it. You have a body image problem, why so?
It sickens me when people here tell me to keep my nose out of my friend/s business/es. If you do not want me to pry then you need do only one of two things, tell me not to, or rid me from your friends list.
I am a caring friend of yours p0llyanna, so prying comes with the territory I am afraid, if I didn't care I wouldn't bother asking questions, in fact, I would have eliminated you from my list of friends already. Get well darling, ASAP.
BeatinBP
there's always ways to deal with stuff like this. don't give up. you'll get through this and one day you'll be healthy and stop worrying about this stuff.
Ameer