Averysmom1's Journal

In 10 days it will be one year ago... One year ago I had you in my belly. One year ago i gave birth to you. One year ago was the worst day of my life.

Avery Grace, there has not been one day that has gone by in the one year that has passed that i have not thought  about you. I cry for you often. I ache for you every day. I miss your movements inside me. I long to see your face. You have no idea how muh your mommy misses you. I have wanted to nurture you and to hold you and to breastfeed you and to calm you when you cry for one year. I dont think this pain will ever go away. It is here inside my heart until the day i die and get to hold you again.

I have been thinking how far i have come this passed year. I have realized that i am soo much stronger than i ever thought i was. I never thought that this could ever happen to me and i could survive it. I have. The pain is still so strong but i think that it will alway be. I am ready to move on my sweet little baby girl, but i need you beside me. watching over me always. Just knowing that you are there, I feel that I have some sort of advantage over everyone else. You were made just for me. I am the only one who knows what it is like to really love you unconditionally. You were made just for me!