Journal

Well here i am yet again!!all because my husband didn,t like me talking to my friends who understand what it is like to live with problems like mine,so anyone who knew "Archangel" that is me! as i can no longer use that account thanks to my soon to be ex husband,so those who didn,t know my name is sharon [i prefer to be called shaz] am fighting cancer at the moment [kidney cancer] and i no longer have any kidneys due to stones and cancer [when i was  younger i lost one kidney to kidney stones then i got cancer in my remaining kidney] i have also had my bladder removed in aug 08 and i live with chronic acute pain,i have also got issues with sex abuse [i was taken in broad daylight and kept for just over 72+hrs i was raped sodimised and the rest is history] just before christmas my husband left me after being together for 25+yrs all because i wouldn,t sorry, couldn,t have sex with him whenever he wanted! last year was hell for me and it looks like it,s gonna be the same this year! i am also on dialysis every night and i have been taken of the transplant list because i am on chemo and because i have cancer,i have a wonderful 21yr old son called callum,we lost another boy called callum last year his mother maria died feb last year after a long battle with cancer,sadly her son and husband were so tramatised that we took them in and they both became my surrogate boy,s sadly just before the end of last year callum [maria,s callum] was badly hurt in a car crash and his life support was switched off and he died,his father "ronnie"has not stopped drinking since his son died,we tried to help him but he no longer comes round.

Well sorry it,s all a bit like a ball of wool that need,s to be unwrapped but i hope you who read this will work out abit of my life,i like to think i,m honest and caring one thing i hate is druggies as it was several of them who took me and almost killed me,even when they,d finished i begged them to kill me but no such luck ,so i,m left with nightmares and a broken mind if you,d like to know more about me then please ask. shaz x