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AmyHumm 
well i am filled to the brim!
i binged twice today... and i must say i feel like crap.
i tried to throw up mulitple times but i just cant do it! i dont want to throw up in a way, but the guilt and worry just kills me.
it started after supper when i saw a box of pancakes, and it was like then i knew i had to adn was going to have those pancakes.
so i binged on wheat thins untill my boyfriend left for a 12 step meeting and then i made the pancakes, i absolutly hated myself and just thinkin about how many hours i would be at the gym tonight... i feel exhausted and like a giant ball.
i am so worried to gain weight, and about a whole bunch other things,
oh god grant me the serenty to accept the things i cannot change the courage to change the things i can and the wisdom to know the difernce
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Oh Amy, I's so sorry you feel the way you do but I had a similar day a few days ago and I found that by just choosing to start afresh with the next meal and consider my abstinance started as soon as I found a rational moment the other side of my feeding frenzy that I could get back on with my program and it at least stopped me being in the food for the rest of the day. I know that your Higher Power can help you stop and get back into program.
Cathster