margie73's Journal

I have had back pain from a car accident that happened about 12 years ago.  In October 2007 I pulled a muscle in my neck/shoulder and the PA put me on Soma and Vicaden. Once I had the surgery to have my kidney removed my back pain seemed to increase dramatically. It has been about 10 months and my pain meds have increased and increased and increased.  However, I don't know what I did to deserve the additional pain and the additional pain meds. I feel like throwing all the meds out the window. I know that they cant be good for my kidney.  However, I did try not taking my pain med for one day and the next day I hurt so bad.  So Friday I was so depressed because my pain was not getting any better, I am falling asleep at work, I am forgetting everything, I have no interest in anything that I normally like to do - like fishing and my garden.  So I went to this new dr thinking that it was all this stupid med I was taking and she checked me out very good - and determined that.............I AM DEPRESSED!  Apparently depression can cause all these problems and they are real.  It is not in my head. The pain is real and everything.  While I was sitting in the room telling her all my problems they came in with the results of my urine test and I have blood in it.  It is not that time of the month so they are pretty sure it is coming from my kidney or my bladder.  I am having a lot of pain in my kidney/liver area so who knows what the problem is.  Of course it could be nothing.  That is what I am praying for.  So I am calling out to all my DS family and asking that you pray for me to be cancer free and for help with my depression.  Thank you all and God Bless you.