Journal

God damn my bf has pissed me off once again tonight. He fucked me good earlier and held back from getting off why i don't know. Now he's an hour or so away with the 2nd gf. He said they won't be home til 11 or so. I seriously thought they'd be home by now. What the fuck do I know, nothing that's what. I have locked the doors and taken the key inside so he and she won't be able to get in except through a window. I might return the key and only leave the backdoor open so they can get in when they get back. I've turned all outside lights off wich I may turn one on so I can go jump in the god damn pool and relax. I'm sick and tired of my bf thinking he can hang out with this bitch more than me. I was his gf first and foremost and this is how I'm repaid he can seriously have her for all I care because I'm not about to be taken advamtage of like this, especially when the 2nd gf he has said is not as hott as me and also could never get him off like I can. He asked me did I wanna go stay at his moms while he went to this interview. I said no because her english with primarily speaking espanol is nto clear and I don't know how to speak enough espanol to hold a conversation with her let alone know what she's saying. So I been at home since 5 something this afternoon. Either I get more attention than a quick fuck without him getting off or I'm gonna say or do stuff I will regret later. And I don't think anybody wants that so I better get more attention than this.

Lexie