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SO I GOT UP TODAY... GOT OUT OF BED- MADE MYSELF SOME LUNCH- GOT DRESSED, FIXED MY HAIR AND ACTUALLY PUT ON SOME MAKEUP - ALTHOUGH I THINK I PUT ON …
I'M A 25 YEAR OLD (SINGLE) WOMAN/ I PUT THAT WORD IN THE BOX CAUSE THATS HOW I FEEL WHEN I'M SINGLE LIKE I'M TRAPPED IN THIS LONELINESS AND I CAN'T ESCAPE IT ! I AM ONCE AGAIN LIVING AT MY SISTERS HOUSE/ SHE TOLD HER BABYSITTER TO SHOVE IT/ SO I'M WATCHING THE KIDS AND LOOKING FOR A NEW JOB/ CAN'T SEEM TO FIND ONE . I FEEL SO TRAPPED HERE/ SHE TOLD ME THAT I CAN'T DATE WHILE I LIVE HERE/ REALLY MAKES ME WANT TO GET OUT/ ALTHOUGH NOT IN A HURRY TO DATE CAUSE JUST GOT OUT OF ONE OF THOSE WHAT WERE U THINKING RELATIONSHIPS/ I LOVED HIM WITH EVERYTHING I HAD AND NOW HE'S GONE. HE LIED AND CHEATED AND ALL I GOT WAS A BROKEN HEART AND MAYBE A BABY/ I FIND OUT NEXT MONTH. WELL I GUESS THATS NOT TRUE / I LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT FROM LITERALLY RUNNING AFTER HIM/ AND NOW I'M DOWN TO 208 / WHICH IS PRETTY GOOD CONSIDERING I'M 5'9 I GUESS.. I STILL FEEL LIKE THIS BIG HUGE COW ! BACK TO THE IDIOT/ HE TRIED TO END HIS LIFE AND I STOOD BY HIS SIDE IN THE PSYCH WARD AND WHEN HE GOT HOME/ AND BEFORE HE WENT / WHO LIFTED HIM INTO BED AND TRIED TO MAKE THE PILLS WEAR OFF BEFORE HIS SISTER KNEW AND CALLED 911 - ME ! I WAS THERE..... I HATE ME AND MY LIFE , I HATE ME FOR LOVING HIM, I HATE ME FOR WANTING HIM STILL AND HOW DO I GET OVER THIS?......
I'M A 25 YEAR OLD (SINGLE) WOMAN/ I PUT THAT WORD IN THE BOX CAUSE THATS HOW I FEEL WHEN I'M SINGLE LIKE I'M TRAPPED IN THIS LONELINESS AND I CAN'T ESCAPE IT ! I AM ONCE AGAIN LIVING AT MY SISTERS HOUSE/ SHE TOLD HER BABYSITTER TO SHOVE IT/ SO I'M WATCHING THE KIDS AND LOOKING FOR A NEW JOB/ CAN'T SEEM TO FIND ONE . I FEEL SO TRAPPED HERE/ SHE TOLD ME THAT I CAN'T DATE WHILE I LIVE HERE/ REALLY MAKES ME WANT TO GET OUT/ ALTHOUGH NOT IN A HURRY TO DATE CAUSE JUST GOT OUT OF ONE OF THOSE WHAT WERE
MUSIC/ CONCERTS/ WRITING/ WALKING/ READING/ INTERNET PUZZLE GAMES/ JIGSAW PUZZLES/ AND ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE 80'S....
MUSIC/ CONCERTS/ WRITING/ WALKING/ READING/ INTERNET PUZZLE GAMES/ JIGSAW PUZZLES/ AND ANYTHING TO DO
SO I GOT UP TODAY... GOT OUT OF BED- MADE MYSELF SOME LUNCH- GOT DRESSED, FIXED MY HAIR AND ACTUALLY PUT ON SOME MAKEUP - ALTHOUGH I THINK I PUT ON …
Hey love, I just wanted to tell you i'm gonna answer ur message 2morrow, if thats ok. Im a lil down right now and have a lot of class work :*( I hope everything is going good for u.
sweetie yum! I'm gonna be on a lil later!! I wrote you a message earlier and still need to get back to a couple :) I went to go eat first and i need to get some home work done now (unfortunately :****( ) But i'll be on later love to talk some more:)) I love hearing about your adventures!!! muahhhhhh!
I'm so proud of you! U see that smiley face you have up there with that pretty green face!!! That's what i want for you... well you know what i mean lmao. I want you to feel excellent!
Anytime you have something to say i'm here to listen:)) I really enjoy our talks!! muah!
thanks babe! I'm gonna check my message now... :)
LONELY AND ALONE IN THIS WORLD... AND FEAR I ALWAYS WILL BE... I HATE ME AND MY LIFE!
alone and lonely in this world and have felt this way since i was 6 years old always told my mom that i'd be alone when i was older and look 25 and alone.... fears do come true !
just got out of a bad relationship and finding it hard to get over him.. thought i could get some support from this group