January 4, 2009 2:55am
I have started making plans to improve different aspects of my life. I have begun listing all of the little things that I can do that will affect …
January 3, 2009 2:08am
I spend more time sinking further into my depression. You would think it would really happen when it's Christmas or on my birthday, but as it …
I have been having a really hard time finding motivation to go on from day to day. I just don't feel like there is any inspiration to keep going on in my life. I try to make lists of things I'm grateful for and that just makes it worse. I just want to feel good again.
Two years ago I lost my grandfather. He was the first significant person to lose in my life. It hurt so bad. Last year I lost my mother. I can't explain the pain that I carry with me.
My relationship is over three years now but has been a horrible roller coaster. I met my boyfriend right after my mom was diagnosed with cancer. Since then my grandpa passed, my mother died, his father died, and his grandma. We both carry such pain and tend to take it out on each other.
My mom died a little over two years ago. I miss her terribly every day of my life.
