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Well, my eldest daughter came and picked up my grand daughter yesterday and I was pleasantly surprised at her attitude...I know it was fake, I know she was struggling, but I was actually getting some respect and there was no blow out!  We even hugged and said nice things...forced as they may be, they were nice :)

My youngest daughter 14 spent 5 days with her older sister and came home a little brat...she came home accusing me of mistreating her older sister when she was a kid....that I didn't get her xmas gifts, no food, no clothes, that this forced her sister to steal, etc.... 

Well, when my son, mother and I tried to tell her these were all lies, that she was just trying to get someone to feel sorry for her and a 14 yr old was about the only person she could get to believe her.....

Now my youngest is even mouthier than usual, telling me to shuttup, ordering me around and well, to be honest, behaving JUST like her older sister...it's like I'm back in time and I will NOT take it!

She's currently getting off her grounding tomorrow and I've told her this is a fresh start for her, to start making some good decisions...as she's been running away, partying, and being very disrespectful to ANY authority; especially me.

What scares me is; I'm starting college tomorrow...43 yrs old and going back for 2 years, to become a parole officer/sheriff and have a fresh start for us.  If I can barely handle her being home these past few months, how the hell am I going to focus on her and school????????

I guess time will tell huh?