My kid is wild and wound tighter …
My kid is wild and wound tighter than a drum. He is being a bully to his baby sister.I say this knowing mentally their …
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star2000 
9:54am, July 19, 2009
It so frustrating today. I think if I knew how today was going to be, that I would just have went back to bed. I had to start taking care of my boyfriends step-dads animals. I call him and my boyfriends dad, my father-in-laws though we are not engaged. I just feel very close to all of his family. Sorry I got side tracked, I dont mind taking care of the Goats, chicken, mini ponies, or ducks. I dont like the male ponie because he bites and I have to keep an eye on him at all times. He bit me twice on the bottom yesterday. Thankfully not hard though like he did on my arm right after they got him. He is such a monster. He is the only animal that I dont like. It was raining this morning but thankfully it stopped in time for me to go and take care of the animals. I then gathered up the eggs to take to their house and dropped 2 when I was trying to close the gate to the chicken pen, then when I got inside the gate to go to their house to drop off the eggs, I stepped in a hole in their yard and twisted my ankle. I felt sick instantly. I finally made it in the house and My mother-in-law gave me a bowl to put them in and then all of a sudden I started blacking out. She helped me to a chair, got me a wash cloth, and some ice water. I was sweating so badly and blacked out 2 more times. Finally when I felt a lot better, I limped back to my house. Shannon left because he is still working on his grandmas car.He just had the hood to redo because the paint gun for some reason splatered water on the hood. When he came back, he came in the house and I could tell he was not in a very good mood. The car is worse, it did it again except for worse then yesterday. He and I both cant wait until he is able to get this car done. He is a perfectionist when it comes to what he does, and I understand it 100%. Hopefully he can get it done, and then we can relax. My ankle is still sore but I have to get used to it because I have the animals to take care of in the morning. I hope that everyone elses day is going good. I will talk to everyone later.
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WAIT A MINUTE STAR!!!!!!!!! Oh HELL NO, thank God you are here with me! Some where in that journal I read that you "had" to start taking care of the animals. You do not have to do anything you do not want to. Is this your house? He is in your house? Don't let him take over your life. Don't let his family take over your life. IT IS YOUR LIFE!!!!! I can see where this is going....
Honey, is he violent to you???? Is he hard on you???? Don't let him and his family control you. Your job is to raise your boys and take care of yourself. Not to take care of hom and his family and their animals!!!! Is there someone you can talk to? I am worried about you Star! Very worried?
hollidayddd
I can tell from your sweet heart that you have a problem saying "NO" and you need to learn to say no. Say no to them. Say you can't take care of the animals because you need to take care of your boys and you need to do this to the best of your abilities. I bet once you say no you are going to see a side of Shannon that is ugly. But it doesn't matter. Stand up for yourself. Do you want to take care of the animals? Why did they make you take care of the animals? Because good ole' Star isn't going to say no? Say no now! You need to empower yourself. Or say, I can take care of them on one day a week or something, Do you hear me??? What was your mother like? Are you like her? Was she abused? Forgive me for asking these questions but mine was and I am seeing something that could happen here and I just don't want it to happen to you. You say that Shannon can have a bad temper? Honey, my Dad would beat my mother and it got really bad. Don't let your boys grow up to whitness a mom in a bad situation please...
hollidayddd
It has nothing to do with Shannon. This is his mom and step-dad's land that we are living on until we can save up money to buy some land. In exchange for living on their land, we have to do task for them so that we dont have to pay no rent money. The only time I have to take care of the animals is when his step-dad is working. This job is only supposed to last a couple of weeks. Shannon is a sweet heart. He is the one who got this place and let me and my boys move in with him a year ago. Until then my boys and I was struggling to make ends meet. Shannon has to do task around here to help pay our rent as well. He gets frustrated at stuff but he has never laid a hand on me ever or taken it out on me. He has had bad days and would just want to talk to me about them so that I could comfort him. No my mother was not abused. Her and my dad have been married for 29 years in october. I can say no to taking care of the animals but I wouldnt have my trailer that they are still paying on. I do work around here and like I said before, its their way of saying that im paying my rent. I Love Shannon with all of my heart. He treats me like a queen. My boys Love him and want me and him to get married. Thats what I wish would happen but Im waiting until he ask me. I promise im in no danger of being abused. He is my biggest supporter in everything that I do. My relationship before him, my ex husband was emotionally abusive to me. I for the first time feel like a woman who is worth something. I just wrote this journal entry because for me everything going on today was frustrating for both me and for Shannon, but he never did take anything out on me today or any day for that matter. Yes he and I have had little fights over the past 2 years, but they wasnt anything that would cause concern, He even apologizes the few times that we have fights. We havent even had a fight, if you could truly call it that, since sometime last year. Like I said, our relationship is amazing. I dont want anything to ever change in our relationship.I wish that I hadn't written this journal now because I would never want anyone to think anything bad about Shannon. He has been dad when my kids dad didnt even really want to be. He taught my oldest son to tie his shoes, and ABC's. He helped potty train my youngest son, and helping him with his ABC's. Yes I do get frustrated at his family alot, I know that they mean well but im not in a relationship with them. I just have to do what I can around here, until Shannon and I can save up money and buy some land. Please dont think badly of Shannon, because he is 100% innocent. Well Im going to go because we are getting ready to watch a movie. We have a date night pretty much every single night, either watching movies, or playing video games together.
star2000