star2000's Journal

I am still on this dieting Journey.  I feel kind of like Dorthy traveling the yellow brick road to see the Wizzard. LOL. Except instead of wanting to go home, im wanting my old body back. I have lost 4 more lbs and only have 7 lbs to go tto reach my 30lb weight loss on here. As soon as I reach that goal, Im going to start a new goal. I have reched 4 of my own personal goals at home. I have a check list so that every time I loose just 5 lbs I get to check it off and write the date and enter my current weight. Its so exciting to actually complete goals. I remember growing up that I would start stuff and get bored and quit. Sometimes I would make it halfway through and other times I would just get maybe 20% done. This goal is extrmly important to me because its the difference between life and death. I dont want to get sick and have to deal with alot of health issues that run in my family if I can prevent it. Im hoping that my boys will see how much of an effort im making in trying to stay healthy and pass that on to their kids and so forth. I see alot of my past family members, and current family members that are just very unhealthy and I just dont want my future family members to go through everything that we have had to go through in our lifetime. I see my poor mom struggling to breath alot of times, She cant sleep, and desperatly needs a heart transplant. I thought we was going to loose her so many times that its scarry and she is only 16 years older then me. As yall know in the past I have talked about the diabetes, heart disease, cancer, and High blood pressure. I still see a huge majority of my family members struggling with these every day. My youngest brother is staying with me and shannon right now and we both talked about how we are concerned about our older brothers weight. My older brother is 2 years younger then me and my youngest brother is 3 years younger then me. I am hoping to have a talk with my older brother and at least try to get him to eat healthier because if not, I see him not living a long life. Im terrified that he is going to have a heartattache I didn't realize how big he got until he came over here the other day with my dad to drop my lil brother off. It made me want to cry. My parents arent little but I think that my brother is starting to get bigger then them. Please just pray for my brother. Im going to try to talk to him but I just dont know if it will work or not. Thanks to all my suppporters on this Journey with me. I appreciate every single one of you.

Happy 4th of July!!!!!