ccangel05's Journal

I feel an emptiness deep inside my soul

A feeling that many cannot understand

It hurts so bad, I hate it, I want to change it

But how? Is it possible?

Many times I think why me?

What did I do?

I was just a baby

It’s NOT FAIR!

Cancer sucks so bad!!!

I know there is a reason in life for everything

This one I can’t understand.

I just want to be able to have my own kids

Is that too much to ask?

Why does someone else have to

Do that for me?

To feel them move and grow inside me,                                          

Is a feeling I will never know.

I want it so bad, you can never imagine

How it feels, unless you yourself

Have been where I am.

Many say that it is such a miracle

To give birth, a miracle I will

Never ever know.

Don’t tell me I can adopt

I already know!

It’s not the same,

I can tell you now.

Don’t get me wrong

I am glad I am alive.

I did it I won the fight for my life

But it came with a price.

I just want to be able to

have my own kids!