Journal

WOW IT SEEMS LIKE A LONG TIME SINCE I WAS ON LINE. l I have missed being on here and have missed my daily strength friends. I am completely over my gall bladder surgery and am doing well. Alot of my back pain was from the gall bladder and i have cut my use of Darvocet way down. I've only had one darvocet in the 2 weeks since my release from the hospital and that was after a busy day grocery shoping and cleaning floors.

i missed my appointment  with my pyscholgist to find out about the ADHA but will see him the 6th  and will proceed  from there.  I'm still looking forward to finding out if there is any  thing out there to help me FOCUS and be more productive.

Hubby and i have started planning our annual spring trip to colorado. We go to colorado  twice a year for 3 weeks at a time. My brother lives in Manitou Springs and we vist him and also scout  in our hunting area on the west slopeon our spring  trip. We have been hunting and camping in colorado for over 20 years now.

On the home front, my 15 year old nephew  has moved in with Mother. I don't know how well this is going to work. Mother is 73 years old and i don't know if she cam deal with a teenager in the house or not. My hubby and i are willing to help out and be her back up. My nephews  grad dad ( my oldest brother) is local but unwilling to assist. My nephews mother my oldest neice  has been going through a nasty divorce (again) and her children have suffered. She has 4 kids and the nephew that has moved in with my mother iis the olest and the only boy. He is very angry and upset with his moms behavior. 

Anyway i need to catch up my mail and will try to get back into the habbit of journaling again.  later.

I have missed my journal and i have missed my kind and dear friends here in DS. I don't know exactly when  i got sick this time. I started having the same pain symptoms i was having in December. I decided on Monday of last week that I would have the gall out like Dr H had suggested.  It was crazy trying to get a surgeon . No one could see me according to hubby for 2 weeks and he was really stressed and impatient with me for being sick.  I think he is tired of "Sick Wife " and all her friggin problems. we had several arguments and clashes this week. I hate whena ass holes can make me act like an ass hole. He is so paranoid about my pyscholgist that i canceled which made him "happy & relieved". I told the girl at the office that i would be back  and woukld call as soon as i was physicall able. It is  just to much to juggle right now.

Anyway between hubby not being able to Get me an appointment with Dr Baily and the severity of my pain, i have agreed to use a surgeon here in town that i don't like personally.  I had had a "run in" with this surgeon when i was a teen because he removed my appendectomy and  in his office i got my chart (at that time it wasn't allowed) and read  his notes and the labs.  He was ugly and rude to me  and so was his nurse about my "Looking  at my own chart"I   worked with him a  when i was training for surgry nurse. The first time I assisted him  with a colonoscopy He and  I had  an "argument" because the patient was not sedated properly and  i spoke up  about this and didn't get the surgical position  i wanted.  I question his personal ethic as well  but  that would be unethical of me to discuss a former patients history with public. NUT TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORTER..... he is a skilled surgeon and the best in this towm and the best nurses in the world(many  relatives of mine) will be taking care of me .And i have faith in God to take care of the details!

I have been managing my gall bladder attacks with  Darvocets, meditation, fasting an sleep depreviation.  My blood sugars have been erratic but i have manged to keep them  checked . My coffee/caffiene treatment is helping me in this crisis to remain focused on  my diabetes. Which at times in past when in pain crisis i have not manage well.

Saturday i woke up without pain and was able to ride with my best friend to a uniform shop and out to eat. We also stoped at Wally world and u found several cute things on the clearance rack. long sleave tees for 3 buck!! I love a bargin and the tees  are on my winter vacation clothes list.

My friend Susie and i share a common interest....  all things spiritual.  I have some abilites  and  remote veiw  and am in touch with my spirit guide.   And My friend Susie is one of my supporters and advocates. She believes  in the other side and that i am in touch with our loved ones. Yeah Yeah...."take a pill" I hear that often enough. We had a good time with our discussion on the way to town.     Anyway..... i hope this night is an easy one for everyone. Blessings....... please keep ANN & FAMILY, DANIEL & FAMILY  IN YOUR PRAYERS. and me!

 My best girlfriend  has been sick the last couple of days and very unusal for her to complain about anything. So i have been trying to see about herand check to see if she needs anything .Plus another friend's son was arrested for a prank  he and 3 of his buddys did at school involving expolsives chemicals! CHENISTRY CLASS  SHOULDN'T BE TAUGHT TO  DUMB ASSES.  His poor Mom and Dad are just so upset. And the dummy could lose his scholarship. Anyway between my sick friend, my friend with punk for a son and my nosey relatives who want to know the dirt my phone has been ringing off the hook. I've had to screen my calls for 2 days. and not been able to find time to get on here and do my "thang". I got a letter from Mamob  and we are alike in enjoying checking in on DS and reading and posting on the discussion boards. I too like to check  in several times aday to see what's new. I hope tomorrow is a calmer day  and i have my quiet time  and am able to catch up with my friends on here.  Keep both my friends in your prayers...Susie and Connie.....and the punk! I would love to pinch him for acting so irresponsible.