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  • About Me

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    fieldofdaisies

    Female, 46
    CT, USA
    Member since December 26, 2008

    • About Me

      I am 46 years old, though often I still feel like a small child. I have bi-polar disorer, general anxiety disorder, and ocd. Though I suffered with these since I was a child, I was diagnosed for the first time when I was 22 years old. But....after taking meds for a while, and getting stable ...I didn't beleive them. And so it would be being ok, getting bad, seeing psychiatrist, not seeing psychiatrist, getting seeing counselors who would try to convince me I needed meds, not seeing counselors, taking meds for a week, then not taking meds for a year... And suffering more then you would ever know. If I had one wish I would wish for the whole world to be happy and not suffer, for the false ego to die and the truth to live, and for love to rule. If I had a second wish, I would wish to go back to when I was first diagnosed with mental illness and to have taken my medicine every day never missing a dose.This would have radically changed life for myself and my family who have been effected by my illness the most.With this illness, when I finally get stable on my meds, I still have the unquenchable thirst to go back into the past and change things, but I can't and this causes so much anguish and sadness. But I do have today, and if I can heal those closest to me that have been hurt by my untreated illness and reach out to others who have this illness and help them not make the same mistakes that I have then I can get up every morning, despite the havoc I have made out of my life and the lives of those I love (or should I say the my untreated illnesss has made) and keep going on. That that does not kill me, makes me stronger- (Friedrich Nietzche) (Thanks Dave) And somehow, all the things I have been through, both good times and bad times (but mostly bad times) have help made me the person I am today, and have filled my heart with more compassion and empathy for others. For this I am truly thankful, even though it has been a long bumpy often dark, and scary ride.

      I am 46 years old, though often I still feel like a small child. I have bi-polar disorer, general anxiety disorder, and ocd. Though I suffered with these since I was a child, I was diagnosed for the first time when I was 22 years old. But....after taking meds for a while, and getting stable ...I didn't beleive them. And so it would be being ok, getting bad, seeing psychiatrist, not seeing psychiatrist, getting seeing counselors who would try to convince me I needed meds, not seeing counselors, taking

    • Interests

      alleviating pain in the lives of all I can touch, in anyway I can, taking my meds and staying sane, smiling, friendships, all kinds of music, books, being outside, playing and spending time with my little nephews, laughing as much as possible, and making jokes and laughing at my own jokes even when no one thinks their funny, walking in the snow, cloudy days, sunny days, the wind, bodysurfing in the salty warm waves, good food, m&m's, smoothies, watching movies, cooking and drinking wine(need to keep this part tame) writing poetry, playing board games, going sledding, drinking coffee, going to the movies, going to the city and hanging out, sometimes I like to clean my house when I'm really in the mood, most if the I do it when I'm not in the mood, meeting nice people, buying presents for people, writing, the smell of the ocean, the smell of home-made food cooking, the smell of fresh air, philosophical talks, bazooka and double bubble gum, being alone.

      alleviating pain in the lives of all I can touch, in anyway I can, taking my meds and staying sane, smiling,

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      From Raynow Yesterday

      Hugz 2 a super friend ..

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      From Pennyphone Friday

      I'm thinking about you and our chat the other day. Just sending you some love.

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      From JasmineRenee Friday

      Thank you sooo much, sweet friend! That journal comment really touched me. Sometimes I don't feel like I do anyone any good, and then you say something so kind, and remind that I do help others once in a while ;) :) you are the best! God bless you, and thank you so much for your prayers. I think doubting Thomas and I would have been buds...because there are lots of times I don't feel like the Lord will heal me. But then Jesus gives me faith somehow, to believe that I will be whole one day. :) hugsssss! I will pray for you, too.

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      Gentle hugz .. for a friend ..

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      From Sufferjet Wednesday

      Helloooooooo.........where are you? Out getting into trouble with the normies..........feeding the zombies after midnight is bad mojo.

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    • Close Anxiety

      Diagnosed with general anxiety disorder 7 years ago, also have bi-polar, and ocd, never was faithful with meds to my dismay. Am now taking lithium for bipolar and celexa for depression, and anxiety. Only wish I had been compliant years ago. Also took klonopin for a short period may years ago, was prescried ativan, but never took it faithfully, (too manic) , (needed it real bad).

    • Close Bipolar Disorder

      Now that I realize and are more clear minded, I have been bi-polar since I was a small child. Was clinically depressed as a teenager, and all through my 20s on and off, deeply sad... up until now. Also manic, manifested earlier in rage and aggitation. , sometimes also became delusional and paranoid often (psychiatrist said i would get psychotic) Always non-compliant meds for some reason or another. Boy do I regret this. Anyway, on meds now, faithfully and finally.

      Treatments

      Celexa Working / Worked
      celexa is working for me. helps prevent deep depression, and helps curb my axiety and ocd.
      Lithium Working / Worked
      As long as I take it faithfully, it works like a charm. 1200 mg daily. No side effects that I know of. But boy have I had side effects from not taking it!!!!
    • Open Hypochondria

      Diagnosed with bi-polar, generalized anxiety, ocd....and I realize I am a hypochondriac. I think and probably alot of people do that hypochondria is a manifestation of anxiety, and my anxiety has lead me to some harmful solutions to some of my self-diagnosis. Anyway... All these mental disorders are so real and hellish, and most people who do not have them, can't understand them. I have felt like a misfit all my life because of my mental illnesses. Anyway, finding this website has beena gift

    • Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

      have had very bad anxiety and ocd since I was a child, though I did not know what it was then. Also have bi-polar . The last few years as far as ocd goes, it starts with a worry, then I get anxious, more anxious and so anxious I go into a delusional spin.... paranoid, delusional etc...also suffer from bad panic attacks but only when I am really scared and exhausted...i'm so tired...

      Treatments

      Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
      tried doing this but not on meds, and my therapist didn't really know how to help me. (all the therapists I have had.) I think the first thing is to get on the right meds.....only wish I had years ago then get a good therpist who know what they're doing. first meds then CBT..
    • Open Families & Friends Of Addicts

      my best friend is a drug addict...it hurts me so deeoply to see what he's doing to himself...every time he does the drug, he says he doens't ever want to do it again, and the next day' he's out chasing it again...i'm so worried about him and i just want to see him get better, and overcome his weekness...i get so scared for him sometimes...i'd like to have some hope for him, and i do, but he needs hope for himself too...

      Treatments

      Patience Working / Worked
      i keep having patience with hinm, i will never ever give up on him, he's my dear dear friend and i just keep belieivng in him no matter what because he is one of the best people i've ever met..and i see so much in him..he has so much potential..
      Talking Working / Worked
      i try to talk to him...and he does listen, it's just his drug of choice has the better of him..
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