Journal Entry for January 22, 2009
January 22, 2009 4:04pm
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About Me
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About Me
I thought I'd give this site a try...
I thought I'd give this site a try...
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dear sunshine, i hope everything is full of sunshine for you right now dear little sis, i am thinking of you and it seems your never on here, but i do think of you and i hope you are ok,,,,,,and please, anytime you need someone to talk to , or cry to, or vent to, i am sincerely here for you..just message me ok? i have a daughter just your age:) anyway, i hope your having a blast right now on this night of the 4rth...or that your just totally chillin and happy...my love, and peace for you dear sunshine, maggie
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I wish you the best and I'm thinking of you.
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Hello, hello- wishing for you the best. Wondering if perhaps you could take some time to read my journal... as I've been going through a bit of a bout with life and love in general... I would SO appreciate some good advice :-) Thanks so much, regardless!
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thinking of you sunshine..and sending you a big hug, i hope you are doing ok these days, seems like it's been a while since you've been on..here for you anytime you need a friend...peace for you sweetie, love, maggie
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Close The Financial Crisis
No job, no money to go to college, no car...
Close Self-Injury
Been cutting for almost 10 years.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- I'm in a group therapy program right now, but I don't get the chance to go every week.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- My doctor is the head of mental health department in the hopsital he works in.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I've been in therapy for a while, but have been with a few different ones. I can't seem to find one that I trust and don't think is a quack!
- Red Marker Working / Worked
- Tried it once and I also tried taking black eye liner and marking "X"s all over the places on my body I hate.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I always hate talking to people about my problems because I feel like a burden.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
disease hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Bipolar Disorder
Diagnosed at the end of 2007.
Treatments
- Ativan Not Working
- I couldn't handle it. It was too strong.
- Celexa Working / Worked
- I can definitely see a change when I'm on it.
- Depakote Considering
- Was prescribed, but I never had it filled.
- Group Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- I'm in a weekly program right now, but don't get the chance every week to go.
- Ativan Not Working
- Never really did anything for me.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionThought I had seasonal affective disorder, but when I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, things changed.
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- I can see a difference in myself when I'm on it.
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- I can never seem to find the right therapist.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- I try as best I can. Being a Christian and praying helps a lot.
- Prozac Not Working
- Prescribed, but never did anything for me.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I tend to write when I get the most angry, just so I can get my feelings out.
Open Anxiety
I was always told my whole life that I was just a normal person, going through normal stresses, but after an event in 2007, I haven't been the same since. My heart is always pounding and I'm always fidgety.
Treatments
- Ativan Not Working
- I couldn't handle the side effects.
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- Works sometimes when I have the patience.
- BuSpar Considering
- Was prescribed, but I haven't started it yet.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- My wonder drug! I love this stuff!
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Being a Christian, I can pray and God is always there to calm me down when I need it.
Open Abstinence & Celibacy
I am very proud to say that I am a 20 year old virgin!
Open Panic Attacks
I've been having panic attacks for as long as I can remember...
Treatments
- Ativan Not Working
- Couldn't handle the side effects.
- BuSpar Considering
- Prescribed, but I haven't started it yet.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- It helps that I love God.
Open Family Issues
I have a lot of issues with my family. My older brother is a borderline alcoholic, my sister is the Golden Child, and my little brother has Oppositional Defiance Disorder. My parents don't believe that Bipolar disorder is a real disease, even though I live and breath is everyday. My dad is diabetic and my mom always has some kind of injury.
Treatments
- Family Therapy Not Working
- I've been in therapy alone and with my family. Alone, I can't find a therapist that I trust or even like, and in family therapy, I always leave feeling worse about myself than when I started.
- Music Working / Worked
- I write songs all the time and I have certain songs that I put on repeat when my family gets to me.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I've been in therapy alone and with my family. Alone, I can't find a therapist that I trust or even like, and in family therapy, I always leave feeling worse about myself than when I started.
- Talking Not Working
- Talking never seems to help me. It makes me feel worse.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I constantly write...it's my way of escaping my dark reality and creating a happy imaginary place.
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
I've been diagnosed with OCD and I'm never comfortable around anyone, especially my family. I don't hardly go out in public.
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
PMDD.
