My Therapy Appointment (WHAT therapy appointment???)
February 12, 2009 2:21pm
Before the astrisks was written yesterday. After was written today. You want to know how my appointment was? I will respond, …
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Dawnsemble 
9:25pm, April 6, 2009
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About Me
Dawnsemble
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About Me
I'm 42, married mother of five plus two, have four grandbabes. My husband was supportive when we first got together, now he's pulling away. I hadn't been in therapy for years but JUST started again in February 09. I love music - have played piano and sung most of my life and would do it for a living in a heartbeat. I went back to college Fall 08 and did very well there but was torn apart. We recently had a change, the person out front has gone and we are working on finding someone inside who is willing to take over. Right now it's a revolving door and there are so many things going on inside. We are here for us and to help others, multiple, dissociative or otherwise!
I'm 42, married mother of five plus two, have four grandbabes. My husband was supportive when we first got together, now he's pulling away. I hadn't been in therapy for years but JUST started again in February 09. I love music - have played piano and sung most of my life and would do it for a living in a heartbeat. I went back to college Fall 08 and did very well there but was torn apart. We recently had a change, the person out front has gone and we are working on finding someone inside who is willing
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Interests
Music - playing, singing, listening... Very little social networking Crochet & needlework Good books and some TV Football, depending on the team! I really want to travel - see other places and meet people.
Music - playing, singing, listening... Very little social networking Crochet & needlework Good books
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The time alone
February 10, 2009 7:00pm
I haven't been here the past day-plus, and I have an idea why but I don't want to look yet.
The week I spend alone went all right - I …
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No Sleep and Other Rambling Thoughts
January 20, 2009 11:01pm
The chronic pain is frustrating - sleep is rare both at night and during the day. As the days turn into evenings I feel more exhausted than I …
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A bright light in tough times
January 12, 2009 10:18pm
I have really been struggling to stay present. I have a headache all the time, I have a new slice on my right arm, and I have been told I am …
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sending u a hug where are you n how ru doing. i'm worried about you please respond when you get this message. luv ya always lori
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sending u a big hug for some reason i couldn't get you off my mind last night . how r u doing. i don't usually read journals i have too many friends to keep track of. i love u n hope all is well with you. if not send me a message . i always check my messages i'm just so busy or depressed that i don't get on to talk to anybody. how's the changing going. do u know when it's gonna happen. i'm embarrassed to say i don't know much about it. i watch the soap opera 1 life to live n there's a girl jessica that has multipul personality disorder n i guess i think thats how you r. what is the reason ur in so much pain. isn't ther some kind of meds they can give u for the pain. believe me in my house between me n my husband we know all about pain . it sucks that we all have to have some kind of disorder in this life. there is so many people in pain for 1 reason or another. when you think of yourself n then read about someone else's problems you wonder how they manage. anyway this is stupid i'm suppose to b cheering u up. hows the kids good i hope n is ur husband being supportive? mine drives me crazy about my sugar n testing my blood n eating. if it were up to him he'd stick me 100 times a day i think he gets a kick out of it lol. so write me back n let me know how u r. last night really weired me out . love,hugs n kisses lori
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just thinking about you hope you are well
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i just read ur last journal entry how did it go with lori? was she any help? are u still seeing her.? i know how u feel about the kids. it kiss us to do so much for them as they grow up n then they disappoint us in the end. i guess they all have to learn the hard way. they just don't get it that we were once their age n been through the same thing n we have the answers that would make their lives eaiser.remember you r loved here n i will b there for you i check my messages often everyday n will get back to you if u write luv n hugs lori
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hey there friend whats going on in your life you havn't journald inawhile so i don't know how ur feeling except from your horriable smile face. r u still changeing n thats why you havn't journald . well anyway sending you all my love hugs n a little sunshine to try n brighten your day. luv ya lori
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
I have been cutting as long as I have memories, but I am a dissociative cutter. I know it's going to happen again and I need help.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- It may have, but I have had to stop therapy and haven't been for many years.
- Red Marker Not Working
- I used red marker, red paint, too; and neither worked. I was aware of things, whereas the cutting happens when I don't know about it.
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- I'd put on ones that were too tight, cut off circulation to my hands. I'd hurt myself with the ones I used - welts that would stay for days.
Close Chronic Pain
I have had chronic pelvic pain since before I was 15 (I'm in my early 40's). Nothing has worked. I feel alone and frustrated.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Worked for my depression, not for the pain.
- Heat Not Working
- Used heat but usually got burned trying to get it warm enough to help.
- Lyrica Not Working
- Did not work.
- Meditation Not Working
- I am adept at meditating but the pain is not something I can get away from.
- Morphine Somewhat Helpful
- It cuts down on the pain somewhat but I still have breakthrough pain. I am back on MSContin after having been off for about 6 months, trying to find something else. I hate the constipation and nausea.
- Naproxen Not Working
- Never worked for the pain. Will work on a headache, though.
- Oxycodone Not Working
- Wasn't strong enough
- Physical Therapy Not Working
- Did ultrasound, massage, physiotherapy - usually had more pain afterward than I went in with.
- TENS Somewhat Helpful
- I think it helped somewhat but I started getting burns because I needed higher settings to deal with the pain.
Open Multiple Personalities
I was dx'd DID in 1992 and have been trying to live with losing time and others acting as me for longer than that. I haven't been in therapy for a VERY long time, no one here deals with DID and I need to have contact with other dissociatives.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have been depressed most of my life, on almost every med there has been. I have no goals, not been successful at anything, can't make friends and I hurt physically and emotionally.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- Worked pretty well, I loved that I had no appetite! I thought things were much better and stopped taking it - bad move.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- on XR and just increased the dose to 150. I can't tell if it works or not but my doctor says he knows I need to be on something, he can tell. I don't like the constipation.
- Elavil Not Working
- Made me worse - almost completed suicide with this medication.
- Prozac Not Working
- Did not work at all
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I learned some coping skills but I don't remember what they are! I need to be in therapy again but I'm on a waiting list.
- Trazodone Not Working
- Did not work at all
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Didn't work at all
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I could see when I needed help sometimes but haven't written for a very long time.
- Art Working / Worked
- I think this helped me a lot. I used to draw sculpt make collages and such but I have no resources to do this. It helped me through some very difficult times. A couple times it brought up things I needed to deal with so that was positive side effect..
Open Rape
I was raped in high school by someone I did not know, then lived through marital rape for nine years.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I really didn't discuss it because I was afraid because I was married it wasn't rape, even though I said no.
- Talking Not Working
- I told my then-husband he raped me and he said that wasn't what happened, and "When you want to know what happened, just ask me."
Open Sexual Abuse
I have some little flashbacks of SA happening when I was young but I cannot be specific as to who, when, where.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- I think this helped me a lot. I have drawn, sculpted, made collages and have found new things I needed to bring up in therapy.
- Leave Working / Worked
- It took time when I left my ex-husband, but it did work. Trying to heal is the hard part.
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Somewhat Helpful
- I have had to go back through the book quite a few times. I think the workbook has been VERY helpful, but I really wish I had more than one workbook because when things get clearer or more questions come up I make a mess out of the one I have. Both have been helpful.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I have been physically and emotionally abused almost all my life until I was about 30. My first marriage was extremely abusive and my childhood was abusive.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- Art therapy has helped me - drawing, sculpting, collages - they have brought out things I needed to talk about and I learned more about myself.
- Divorce Working / Worked
- Even after the divorce my ex was still very abusive to me. He took my children and left the state - took every chance he could to hurt me physically and emotionally (and sexually) but I am free of him now.
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- I was still with my ex when I tried this, so it wasn't as helpful as I think it could have been.
- Leave Working / Worked
- It took a long time but I am free now to heal.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- I play piano and sing and I think sometimes it is very helpful, sometimes it's frustrating and I just don't do want to do it anymore. I need music in my life.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I think it helped. I haven't been in therapy for at least five years and I really need help now.
