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2:29pm, March 24, 2009
I am beginning to think that this bout of mono was kicked off by a car accident that I had about a month ago. I was on the interstate, went off the road, rolled my car and totalled it. So then I get home and my little dog got out and was lost for 15 hours in some snow flurries, and my cell phone broke, and my home phone broke, then I got a cold, then I overdrafted my bank account on accident.....aaaand then a couple weeks later I was hit with both strep and mono. The strep was dealt with and the mono is still here.
I think there may be a connection with this one day from hell because I have been reading how people's CFS/FM started and many said with an accident. Mine started with something else 17 years ago but I am having a relapse. In fact I'm having a relapse upon relapse. It came back a year and a half ago with a kidney infection and then it got a lot worse after the car accident.
Ten years ago I was housebound and often bed-ridden.
Three years ago I was in school full time making a 4.0 GPA, was the president and vice president of some groups at school, getting a lot of scholastic awards, and was working part time as a massage therapist. That was my first job in ten years.
A year and a half ago I got a kidney infection and it appears I've lost a lot of that amazing progress. I thought I was going to be able to keep going. Maybe I burned myself out.
Maybe I shouldn't have been with my ex, which caused the kidney infection.
Maybe I shouldn't drink. (duh)
Maybe I should work on my ability to cope with stress.
Maybe a lot of things...
I guess the good part here is that I know it IS possible for me to have remissions. 8 years of functioning almost normally was a wonderful gift. I want it back and sometimes I lose the drive that I used to have to get well. Sometimes I just get tired of trying...I feel disillusioned, but I assume that while working at a snails pace this go-around, I'm at least still inching forward.
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elizabeth, excuse my ignorance but what is mono, if i know more about this i may be able to offer more support
you know that you need to focus on the 8 good years and bring structure into your life to make this possible, have you joined the secret group, i am trying to talk tyler into making this a discussion group so we could all work through the moving together while putting into place the law of attraction,
keep doing what your doing you will get there x
soultosoul
Mononucleosis, a virus that lasts for awhile. It's called "the kissing disease" bc a lot of teens get it. It is also what many people suspect play a large part of chronic fatigue immune dysfunction syndrome/fibromyalgia.
Those 8 years were amazing. They were unexpected, the same goes for me being ill.
I got your email. I'll reply back. :)
I second guess everything I write...in a journal, an email...anywhere.
PerhapsOneDay
elizabeth i looked up mono to see if i could offer you any further support and i did not realise that it was glandular fever, it was when you said the kissing disease that it rang a bell for me,
when my oldest son Kyle who is now 17, was 15 he took this, i had him at emergency twice with a severe sore throat and swelling before he was diagnosed through a blood test, he was very unwell for several weeks, at this time he played football (soccer) for one of the teams in scotlands premier division (he had a great career ahead of him but walked away from this 14 months ago aghhhh !!!) anyway i called a Dr JAn De Fries i dont know if you have heard of him, he is quite famous in his field of alternative medicines, he has many clinics world wide, i cant remember the name of the stuff we got but he recommended this and also that my son had to take complete rest, with plenty of fluids etc, he said if you did not let your body heal from this properly it could come back in later life in the form of depressions n stuff, my son recovered well and has never had any comeback,
anyway i rabbled on, but just to let you know i now understand what this is and i will see if i can get the name of the pill/vitamin he gave us
soultosoul
This is weird..I never saw your reply to my post on this, Alison. (I think?)
Yeah they do call it glandular fever in other countries, you're right. I always forget that we're away from each other until you say something that reminds me. No I have not heard of this doctor. I should look him up...but I may forget, bc I forget everything. ;)
You know, most people recover from this ailment pretty easily, and yes we're supposed to just rest - which I did a lot of when I first had it bc it knocked me on my ass - but right now I can barely afford to just lay down even as much as I do. Like I said I'm skipping a flight in 5 hours bc I can't really get up. Gross.
I'm realize that I have a bitter tone in my writing tonight. I feel depressed momentarily.. I'll sleep and feel a little better, my mood shifts quickly. But I do know that when I wake up, I won't be on the up and up to pack and leave....
*yeah so how come "thinking positively" sometimes just equates to "lying to myself"?*
I'll end this positively though bc it's what I should do. I'm glad your son recovered from this so well. I really am. And furthermore, my dear I hope your kids are as cool are you are.
PerhapsOneDay