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this is one subject i can truelly relate to i myself have had a bad habit in the past of just riding the storm out but it never truelly works for the better or so it seems it all came clear one day and the funny thing is with a 4.0 average in college in marriage counseling its funny my mother brought me to the realization of one true fact she called me one day and said baby whats wrong i said mom im not happy i felt as if i was just there wasting yet another time in my life which i couldnt get back and mom said baby if your not happy just leave wow and left i did and never looked back life is far to short to live with anything else that makes us unhappy and if you have years in the relationship it seems why throw it all away but if your going nowhere its just best to go somewhere well dont know if this will help but god bless you and hope it gets better for you

elizabeth, this is difficult but if you feel you need him around at the moment then stay with it, but you have to consider that if the realtionship is bringin your mood down in anyway then its not worth it,
also while you continue to be with him you wont put any effort to find (or attract) a relationship that will bring you comfort, love and all the other great things you deserve.
you need to surround yourself with as much possitivity as possible to help you move forward

Don't worry about the cussing, hon. I'm a long time cursing SOB, and don't care. If it offends some, then they should ignore me, and quit talking to me. I've been to hell and back more than a hundred times with problems, but only once in nearly 32 years with my wife. Things are very bad now, and both she and our younger daughter are very sick,,maybe dying. The doctors here are asses of the first class, and only bitch about anybody taking more than 10 minutes of their precious time. I appreciate you contacting me. I'm not sure how you did that unless you stumbled across one of my many hell-raising posts. Thank you at least for caring. I find compassion severely lacking in this rat race society, but feel there is no hope left in our situation. You are young, and should dump this character who sounds like a toxic boyfriend or whatever. I'd rather be alone than have to deal with a lousy partner. My wife is a wonderful, and pretty woman who I never deserved, being an old country loner for so many years. Our younger daughter has been sick and slowly dying from a very serious case of Systemic Lupus, for 14 years now, and after awhile, nobody cares. My wife has been devastated and I stick by her as both she and our daughter are in dire health. Thanks for your suggestions, but I am too worn out to do much more other than basics at home now on a very limited income. I am watching them die before my eyes, and nobody around here cares. The doctors are pompous asses, and I vow to make them pay dearly if I lose both my wife and child. This is getting deadly serious, but I have been very patient, and that is wearing very thin. I wish you the best. Huggs, Goliad

You most definately are not a shallow person.sometimes in life we end up compromising things here and there that go against what we ultimately believe and feel,and it often happens when we are overwhelmed or too tired.As someone said above,I have been stuck in unhappy situations that I thought I would never see the end of,because I will stick with it to the end.I am loyal to a fault.I am in that situation now.
Unfortunately we are all too human,and act accordingly.I support you Elizabeth,whatever your decisions are.Your a good person,and your circumstances don't change that.Don't think that every other person does not have some problems or habits that they try to hide.I don't care what flys out of your mouth(I'm a cusser too),because it is intentions of the heart that count.IMHO.((((hugs))),and lots of love-Jen

I rarely read my friends journals for lack of energy but something told me to check up on you.That is a nice entry.It is ironic because you say you feel like a broken record,but that is one of the things I like about you.When you say something I believe you,and feel like you mean it.You come off as a very sincere person........lol did u know that?Your friend-Jen

You are not alone, elizabeth i really feel the battle you are fighting and wish i could help in some way, the one thing you continue to do is fight (ok i know there are days you dont feel like it, but we wont count them , lol) and i am sure you are on the path of turning your life around. as you know the only thing i can offer is the distant reiki healing (i didnt manage to send last night as i have not been very well with flu) and i really hope this makes a difference, i will send again tonight
i dont know what other advice i can offer but just to say continue to be who you are, this is something within your spirit that shines through x

No, we are not alone. This is site is excellent in that way. I love my friends here.

I do love the uplifting words, but am just sad we don't seem to be finding any answers. I guess I am looking for a cure, for an ease to the pain?!
Your entry was well said! :)

KatieJP, I know what you're saying about uplifting words, but sad about not finding answers for the pain. I was feeling the exact same way. I don't know you're age, but I suffered off and on increasingly for about 35 years with bladder/urethral pain that became unbearable. I had been diagnosed with 3 different autoimmune diseases and have had cancer twice. I attended a Lupus support group, and was grateful for the kind words, but kept waiting and hoping for someone to have the answer to the pain. I have tried so many things over many many years. I have had a number of side effects from drugs so started up the natural herbs path and found that it's a combination of several things, not just one or a few. A friend gave me some herbal supplements that have helped a lot of people with autoimmune diseases. The ones I take are particularly targeted towards inflammation. It is called "Arthaffect." You can contact the company directly to try the product at toll free:
1-800-735-4887. It has done WONDERS for me. I know longer have any of the pain from IC. meri_terry@yahoo.com

Reading through your replies, I wondered if anyone had concidered the naturopathic approach, which can be summed up by 'If structure can govern function then function must also be able to influence structure'
What that means is:- if your structure is out of balance then you cannot function correctly, and conversely, if function is in control then it is a dietary problem.
For a level playing field this has to exclude congenital problems or having been seriosly smashed up.
Should anyone be interested, please message me.
Here to help, Don.