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BlueLaura 
So, yesterday I just went through the house inspection of a home I may potentially buy, and it turned up... wait for it... mold. Saturating the attic. Crazy amounts of it. It means pumping thousands of dollars more into the house if I do buy it, which I may. Sounds crazy, but the house is in a killer location, on a great chunk of land, and a decent value for the money (I mean, it's not a drop-dead deal, but it's certainly a good deal - $10k less than what comparable homes in the area have sold for.). It's tiny, only 720sf. But, it's all I can afford to get into this neighborhood without overextending myself. The opportunity to live in this area may not come up again. I'm going to price out venting the attic and treating the mold issue - see if I can get it bumped from the final house price. But, mold is so tricky. It takes a lot to remove it once it gets going. My grandmother has spent tens of thousands of dollars trying to remove mold from her basement. But, I suppose, it is the attic of a teeny-tiny house. A bad scenario would be that I'll need to rip off the roof and it's structure and rebuild it from scratch, which is bad, but it's not likely that I would need to level the home, which I've heard has to be done in some homes where mold is saturating the entire house.
This sounds crazy, but I'm really thankful that I have so many big stresses in my life all at once. It has meant that I don't have too much time to obsess and dwell on any one item for too long. I really believe I would be a complete mess if I just had the thesis thing, or just the house thing, or just the moving thing (will be completely out by Monday or Tuesday, weather permitting), or just the new job thing. I know that my weight is suffering, but that's also part of the nature of my coping skills. I'm really great at stuffing down my emotions - so they like to pop out in different areas. I know that eating isn't the best, but it's definitely a step up from alcohol. And, even though I continue to eat in an unhealthy way, I'm also continuing to work out on a daily basis. I'm just not ready to tackle the food thing yet, as is obvious by my delusional defensiveness about it! Also, I am trying to work on the feeling my feelings thing. That's a big part of why I've joined DS.
It's just interesting to me how I tackle one demon, then another one pops up. It makes wonder if my whole life is going to be about minimizing the impact of the demons? I mean, say I get this food thing under control, then where will it come out next? Will I go back to drinking? Will it come out as an eating disorder? Will it come out as rage? Will I ever be a healthy person who can deal with my issues in an appropriate way? Oh yeah, this is where one can tell that I indeed do suffer from depression in a big-time way. I shouldn't dwell here, because it's likely to send me into f*ck-it mode, and I like contributing to society lately. I like being out of bed for more hours per day than I am in bed. My, I think that I maybe should go get in another work-out today... I'm a bit of a fatty bingle batty, so it's probably not a bad idea! I should maybe just wait another 20 minutes and let that cinnamin roll digest. Don't worry, though! I gave half of it to my dog, because, apparently, I want to set her up with some unhealthy eating habits, too.
