starfishbaby's Journal

Part of the difficulty in reaching my goal is staying strong enough not to try to contact the baby's dad. It's hard bwcause I get so annoyed and mad he doesn't help with anything and I need money and things for the baby, but I also know it's really futile and he doesn't really care. I didn't invite him to the latest ultrasound because he doesn't even really care if he's there, and he if I give him pictures he never shows his family or anyone so I decided he really didn't need any then.

ALl he really does is argue with me or purposely do and say the opposite of what I say just to argue because he likes making me unhappy. I have decided that unless and until he apologises and makes his own real attempt to ask to be a part of Haiden's life he isn't going to get to be involved, and I don't want him at the hospital if he can't swallow some pride, grow up and act appropriatley. I am not going to beg, heck I'm not even going to ask him to come. If he doesn't care enough to ask then he doesn't deserve our son.