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Today should be my last ultrasound so long as everything goes ok with the pregnancy this month. I am actually in labor technically but this could last all month really. I'm one centemeter dialated but that happens alot in the last month so I'm not worried. I just hope he waits until after the baby shower or he's sleeping in the play pin for a while.

Daddy doesn't talk to me anymore at all doesn't repsond it doesn't matter I only invite him cause my counselor says I should anyways. I used to care and used to want him there but oyu know eventually you get sick of the games so now I'd rather he just not be. He's playing stupid idiot now wants to wait till baby's born to get a dna test, that's fine it's his baby anyway he's only doing it to stall and bide time so he doesn't have to pay for anything. I'm excited to see my boy who's been punching my in side all week long.

Can't wait for court, i'm not going to be separated from my son I can tell you that much, if my ex really cared he'd have been empathetic, helpful and attentive but alls he really cares about is his money.

Well, I finally just gave up on the baby's dad, if he doesn't want to be a part of this it's his loss no one can help him be a good person but himself. At the advice of my counselor I texted him a list of dates and times, the remaining OBGYN appointments and final ultrasound, but that's it otherwise I don't care and I don't care if he shows up anymore or not. If he has more important things to do than sepnd time with his son, and doesn't care about his family, then he can live a fullfilling life without either of us. I have decided to go for sole custody of Haiden if Adam tries to challenge me, he hasn't taken care of anything, paid for anything and shows no interest in raising our son or being there for him emotionally, physically or financially so I do't think he's earned any more than that.

Our son needs an adult who understands children have needs and they cost money and you can't simply say no food, no clothes no bed for you because I don't feel like spending money. I hope to be moving soon too so I can get out of boring town I live in it sucks here so I son't want to live here anymore. Also I hope I get my child support hearing soon so I can get a place for me and the baby to live like we deserve.