Hanging in there
January 8, 2009 1:20pm
My husband came back after one night out. We still haven't spoken to one another and he is sleeping in the spare room. The good news is that …
BeStill 
2:39am, February 13, 2009
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About Me
BeStill
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About Me
I am a wife and mom of two small kids. I am also a grateful recovering alcoholic. My faith is very important to me as it has sustained me through the many storms this life has brought. This past year and a half is when the PTSD really starting kicking in. I also suffer from dissociation and self-injurious behavior (not cutting.) My goal is to get through this well enough to be able to help and educate others. I believe that God has more in store for me and my life and want to help empower others who are "stuck" to feel and act the same.
I am a wife and mom of two small kids. I am also a grateful recovering alcoholic. My faith is very important to me as it has sustained me through the many storms this life has brought. This past year and a half is when the PTSD really starting kicking in. I also suffer from dissociation and self-injurious behavior (not cutting.) My goal is to get through this well enough to be able to help and educate others. I believe that God has more in store for me and my life and want to help empower others
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Interests
Documentary photography, film making, writing, dancing, RUNNING!!, theology, apologetics and politics.
Documentary photography, film making, writing, dancing, RUNNING!!, theology, apologetics and politics.
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husband walked out
January 6, 2009 2:06am
I really cannot believe this. My husband walked out on me tonight and basically told my 5 year old that "I'm outta here." I have a 5 …
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Philippians 1:6
December 23, 2008 12:04am
Hooray!!
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
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Somatic Experiencing therapy
December 22, 2008 1:08am
Ok, so I have had two sessions and I am blown away. I was recommended to this therapist by another trauma specialist who I met while I was inpatient …
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dementia??
December 19, 2008 4:28pm
I saw my internist today and because of my symptoms and lesions on my brain (according to mri findings) we need to rule out Early onset dementia. I …
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Rainbow
Glad to see you're back. Hope things are going well. Gentle hugs!!
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Hi, Glad to hear all is better. I am doing well and going on no picking record here. yay. HUGS
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Just wondering how you are doing? Hugs, Suzi
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Hi how are things going? HUGS
I’m With You
thank you and i would love to hear your story, May i add you as a friend? i thirdst to hear your experience,
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Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I had chronic emotional and some physical abuse as a child and ongoing neglect and abandonment. There were sexual abusers in our family . Although I don't have recollection of it happening to me, I think it might have. A recovering alcoholic, 13 years, I have also dealt with eating and body dysmorphia issues. Still struggle with self injury (not cutting) dissociation and depression. Have physical and cognitive problems now as a result of the ptsd. I am a mom of 2 little ones and am married.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Dbt brought my attention to my emotion. I am in a place where the emotion needs to be dealt with and felt straight up. "mindful breathing" can be dangerous for me because of my dissociation. However using observe and describe brought me in the moment. My doctor eventually had me leave this group because it was too triggering for my PTSD issues.
- EMDR Somewhat Helpful
- Only did a couple sessions. I had a whole physical experience but no visual to accompany it. The therapist said that there are some things that are brain protects our body from seeing because they are too bad.
- Guided Imagery Somewhat Helpful
- I think of being under a canopy of trees looking up and seeing some of the blue sky and sunshine peeking through. The woods was a safe place for me as a child.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- but can be too triggering for me sometimes.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I think much of it has done more damage than good though. Been in therapy for 12 years.
- Reading Working / Worked
- Waking the tiger
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- helps me at night to sleep or to knock out a really bad episode and calm my nervous system down.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- very helpful, especially when it's someone who understands first hand what this is like.
- Topamax Not Working
- took mostly for the cravings when I over eat or have the desire to pick my skin on my face.
Close Self-Injury
My face picking started in junior high and got to an all-time bad in my mid twenties when I had removed all the top layer of skin from my face. I still do it and have gotten many infections. I am lucky that my skin heals well but now that I am getting older I have many scars.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
