RyannsDad's Journal

wow.. where to start?? i got my business started along witha shop and 2 huge dealers for my main customers.. awesome!! so it would seem?! i had to do this on my own since the family could care less and mama has enough to do according to her?? 3 kids is a lot but so is building a business from nothing!! i think i did pretty damn good for myself so far and get nothing in return except manipulation and guilt for it?? i really don't understand it at all?? on the plus side i get to see Ryann and her chubby little face smiling at me as she laughs and plays with me when i get the chance to see her.. God i love her so very much!! in that moment she's looking at me i know i can't sweat the small stuff because she's my chance at something better and i knowi can make her life more with the gift of security once everything falls into place.. between lawyers and all the good stuff that comes with the business stuff i've been running off my feet and doing it alone.. kinda good but still a lot of work.. i hope one day she'll forgive me for missing out on the things i wish i could be there for right now??

pretty tired tonight so i'm off to sleep for a bit.. thinking of someone that always seems to believe in me no matter what and wishing i could hear her voice to reassure me i'm going to be alright