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About Me
crazyangel08
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Hugbook
Gold Star
looks like you are doing well.
Hug
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I’m With You
angel,
yes, I'm here and I'd be glad to reconnect. much has happened since last we spoke.
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I’m With You
hang in there. I'm out here thinking about you.
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Hug
Thanks for the flowers and hugs. It's a rainy day and they're just what I need.
24/7 hugs to you too.
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Support Groups
Close Rape
I was raped by a therapist and still feel like it's my fault. I once almost ended my life but a friend called the police. I will never do that again. My life is on the up and up and although I have seen some very bad nights/days where I spiraled DOWN I am now spiraling up
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Working / Worked
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Fear of abandonment. Perceived Abandonment several times in the past 2 yrs by loved ones as well as a perceived breakup with a church. I have kept some friends from that group. I am lucky there. The rape has stripped me of my identity and I'm finally seeing the woman I am in the mirror more clearly now.
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- It helps for awhile but where do you put all the damn paintings! And then the really dark ones stand as a reminder of those BAD days. :(
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- Am working with this now
- Music Considering
- Going back to singing and performing
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- It worked for the beginning stages of my therapy and then too much introspection and no action plan with clear end goals in mind made me feel helpless and victim rather than survivor and victor
- Rape Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- Even in a small support group I was fearful It helped but I wasn't as committed as I could have been . many of the members did not share my story and they did not have children and it made a huge difference to me. I wish someone (a mother) was in that small group.
- Reading Working / Worked
- Too many to name. And yes. I have more than I can read. Often online articles are faster...
- Supportive Care Working / Worked
- Just friends....one I met online. She is the best person I have met online and she has been my #1 support Total stranger turned into the most meaningful relationship right now
- Zoloft Considering
- Doctor tells me to take this. My holistic health coaches say not to.
Open Breakups & Divorce
Separated and getting disentangeled...headed for coparenting
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- Didn't work. But we will try to go to a Harville Hendrix "getting the love you want" weekend maybe.
- Forgiveness Too Soon to Tell
- therapy
- Leave Working / Worked
- yes this works to get perspective
- Music Working / Worked
- Yes but at your saddest it's hard to find the music
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- yes for me. but CBT and DBT ....as well as NVC books helped me a lot too
- Reading Working / Worked
- Helps me but he won't read any
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Yes. some of them have been helpful. Nonjudgemental.
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
- Yes! Friends help
Open Fitness Goals
Type: Maintain a workout scheduleyoga 2-3 times a week jogging 1-2 times a week swimming 1-2 times a week dance classes 1x at least rock cimbing 1x a week cycling (trying to get back on)
Treatments
- Climbing Too Soon to Tell
- Dancing Working / Worked
- not enough offered at times I need
- Elliptical Trainer Not Working
- got bored
- Hiking Somewhat Helpful
- it is particularly helpful when with a lot of people to talk to...
- Personal Trainer Not Working
- Had one. Was ok. Was like therapy for awhile and got good advice but in the end was too much of a crutch and could not maintain without the trainer in the pic. I had to relearn the whole routine on my own in order to keep a longterm committment to exercise.
- Running Working / Worked
- Works when there is no other interesting activitiy available but you know you head is spinning and you need a quick fix. 25-30 min. of sprinting will take off any crazy feelings fast
- Swimming Working / Worked
- YES Love the water. :) It is so therapeutic. I am very into this right now. I am hooked on to my backstroke ...because I can feel like I'm flying while gazing at the sky above . I feel like I'm between sky and water and earth ...a really magical place where I feel healing is happening
- Weight Training Somewhat Helpful
- it made me feel strong and healthy. Progress is easy to track because you can lift more as time goes on. I gave it up because i started to buff up too much. I will still do it but not as often as I did before. I don't want to look HUGE
- Yoga Working / Worked
- Yes. I just have to practice daily and get myself to more group classes which keeps me more motivated
Open Single Parenting
I have been separated from my husband for over a year and we don't live together. I am worried about my kids.
