buckeyefan's Journal

so i have been kind of moody lately and so has my exwife but things just kind of boiled over the other night we had a huge fight and i lost it i threw food and made my kids cry and in turn i broke down and for the first time in forever i cried with them i sometimes just feel everything slipping away my sanity my life my family but it did make me feel a little better to cry i always try to be tough and i bottle everything up and it always comes out in anger i just feel so useless sitting around waiting for ssdi i dont feel like a man anymore and now that my wife has a job i feel even more useless i dont want to get up in the morning but my kids are my reason to get up and try to do something thats all for now