Journal Entry for December 10, 2008
December 10, 2008 9:26pm
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dee3314
9:10am, September 29, 2009
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About Me
dee3314
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About Me
I struggle with cutting, but refuse to call myself a cutter because I am not defined by my habit. it has been almost 4 months since the last time I cut, but I am tempted everyday. I am a jesus freak, no matter what my habit was.
I struggle with cutting, but refuse to call myself a cutter because I am not defined by my habit. it has been almost 4 months since the last time I cut, but I am tempted everyday. I am a jesus freak, no matter what my habit was.
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Interests
God, youth group, scrapbooking, writing, and reading
God, youth group, scrapbooking, writing, and reading
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WARNING: cutting poem
December 8, 2008 5:06pm
I slice at my wrists and watch the blood flow, F r e e Unlike Me. I'm trapped inside |walls| made by …
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If ya need to talk, I'm here for you.
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hey why are you so angry?
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your poem was really wonderful. i am happy to be your friend
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hey I am glad to be your friend, I wish you a happy new year!
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Hi, I wanted to welcome you to the Christian Ministry 247 sites. I'm so happy that you are with us. Will you be my friend?
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Close Self-Injury
I've struggled with cutting since the 6th grade and I am now a senior in highschool. I refuse to call myself a cutter, because that's not what I am defined by. I have not cut since August 9, 2008.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- It helped to talk to someone who really knew how to help, especially since they were a Christian as well.
- Red Marker Working / Worked
- I liked cutting for the blood experience, and it helped to mark myself with red marker. The problem is, it's very visible. People catch on quickly.
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- It never worked for me. I didn't like the way it didn't feel like cutting as much as I wanted it to.
- Squeezing Ice Working / Worked
- The numbness made me feel again, if that makes any sense.
- Talking Working / Worked
- It's hard, but it helps get the feelings out that make me want to cut.
Close Depression - Teen
I've dealt with depression since the 3rd grade, but it got severe come middle school. I started cutting because of it. Now, I am getting through slowly but surely.
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- I needed something stronger, I guess.
- Music Working / Worked
- It's therapy, for sure. And cheap therapy at that!
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- It helps to think positive of myself because I tend to tell myself I'm worthless. Sometimes, my own doubts get in the way, though, and it's impossible.
- Prozac Working / Worked
- It worked, but I don't like meds, so I chose to get off of the prozac.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- It helped to get out the feelings that I had and tell someone who knew how to deal with it.
- Trazodone Not Working
- I got so tired!
- Writing Working / Worked
- I write lots of poetry to help get out the feelings I'm afraid to tell people I have.
Open Anxiety
I was sexually assaulted 3 years ago, and sexually abused a few years before that, so I have panic attacks now that interrupt my life.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- It helps to TRY and control my breathing, even when it seems too out of control.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- It keeps me from thinking irrationally.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
I have OCD because I want to try and control the things around me because my emotions are so uncontrollable. So, to make myself feel better, and to stop myself from doing stupid stuff, I count, organize, and constantly fix things that are crooked.
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- It wasn't strong enough to stop the urges.
Open Teen Anxiety
I had my first panic attack in a long time today, but I had them constantly, sometimes three a day, before. I was sexually assaulted three years ago, so it came back to haunt me in the form of anxiety.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I was sexually assaulted three years ago, and the symptoms of PTSD just came about last year. Panic attacks are a big part of it!
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- It worked, because it's a great soothing technique during panic attacks.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- It helped to talk to someone trained.
- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
- It helped a lot, but I still struggle. It won't heal me as much as I wanted it to.
- Reading Working / Worked
- It takes me out of my own world.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I can't talk about my issue much.
Open Rape
Three years ago, I was raped after 'dirty dancing' with a guy in my grade and giving him the wrong message. I guess i blamed myself for a long time, but counseling helped me stop blaming myself and focus on God's love.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- It helped to get through the emotions of hatred towards myself, but it didn't help the panic attacks and flashbacks.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- It helped, but it's hard to find someone you trust.
Open Panic Attacks
I was sexualy assaulted three years ago and it has caused me to have major anxiety problems. ]
