BigRedInBK

Close Sexual Abuse

My father molested me as a child. I remember the first time clearly - I was trying on my flower girl dress for my cousin's wedding. He came into my room, reached around me from behind and fondled my breasts, telling me that I was becoming a big girl. After that, the memories become murky. I know there was no intercourse, but everything else is vague. All I know is that I hate to sleep in rooms with no lock on the door. That I suffer from insomnia. That I can't trust anyone. And that I am completely ambivalent about life. The little smiley face is OK because I have no feelings either way. I don't laugh often. I never cry. I am prone to bouts of extreme rage which I work hard to contain. I'm a pressure cooker ready to explode. I haven't had a relationship with a man in over 6 years because I just can't open up to anyone. My life on the surface looks great, but I'm walking around jealous of the truly crazy because they can let go and feel and just be. I just want some help with this.

Close Graves' Disease

I was diagnosed with Grave's disease in 2000. I opted for the radioactive iodine to shrink my thyroid gland and now take levothyroxine every day. Some days are good. Most are bad. It's been 6 years, and I'm still not feeling mentally better. I'm still tired. Sleep very hard. Have memory trouble. What should I do?

Treatments

Radioactive Iodine Somewhat Helpful

I definitely felt much better but I'm not sure if I should have gone in another direction.