Smoking Cigarettes
December 9, 2008 5:21pm
Well, it's time to try to quit again. I started when I was really young then quit 12 years ago. Sadly, I started again 2 years ago. 5 months …
deelynnnn 
12:43am, April 20, 2009
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About Me
deelynnnn
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About Me
Hi everyone, I'm Dee and I'm sometimes very lonely. I'm almost always surrounded by poeple who love me but mostly in a platonic way. I try to surround myself with good people and thoughts but due to my many medical issues I find myself alone a lot. I came here to find people who have some of the same issues I have. I've tried all sorts of other sites, like dating sites and craigs list, but nothing works and more often than not I end up getting my hopes up and my heart broken. I really want to talk to everyone here but I want all you guys to know...I am not looking for a relationship. Please do not approach me hoping for a relationship...it's not going to happen. You may ask why...well, I have a lot of serious physical problems. I have constant pain and balance issues. I spend a lot of time in bed and not hiking or playing out of doors. I use a wheelchair when I hurt, which is a great amount of the time. I also have a caregiver, a wonderful man who gives of himself though he doesn't get what he deserves out of the deal. Sometimes we go through time where we don't get along though, as most people living together do, and I find I need people to talk to. This is why I am here, to find friends to talk to when I'm alone. Hope we can all be friends! IM me and I will talk if I am able at the moment. If I don't, please understand, and try again. Talk to you soon!
Hi everyone, I'm Dee and I'm sometimes very lonely. I'm almost always surrounded by poeple who love me but mostly in a platonic way. I try to surround myself with good people and thoughts but due to my many medical issues I find myself alone a lot. I came here to find people who have some of the same issues I have. I've tried all sorts of other sites, like dating sites and craigs list, but nothing works and more often than not I end up getting my hopes up and my heart broken. I really want to talk
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Interests
I have a lot of interests. My animals are the loves of my life, they never betray me and they always worry and care. I do a lot of art, anything from drawing to pyroengraving, to carving. I alos love to do a lot of various string work like embrodery and chrochet. My sewing machine also gets a lot of use as right now I'm working on a very intricate quilt. It has 46 pieces in each individule foot of quilt. Really hard to do. I also enjoy the computer where I do a lot of programming and ebaying. I like to find and sell collectibles all over the world. I am here at the computer quite a bit of the time to try IMing me sometime, I will answer if I can.
I have a lot of interests. My animals are the loves of my life, they never betray me and they always
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A time to heal
December 8, 2008 4:12pm
Here goes my first Internet journal ever.
I've never been one to share my feelings or problems with others, but this place allows you to …
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Hugbook
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I have missed you. I am glad you are back. 2009 will be a better year for all.
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Hug
Just wanted to know how things are with you? Have a great week.
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Mistletoe
Happy holidays to you. I hope the spirit of the season brings your happiness and joy. I am thankful I am here with DS and I have you as my friend.
Rainbow
You're right. Menopause IS the pits! I had a long and difficult one - didn't have my final three periods until age 54. Remained emotional throughout my 50's, even tho technically I was finished. I swear, it's only now at almost age 63 that I feel totally calm, as though all hormones are finally out of my system! BUT THIS DOESN'T MEAN IT WILL HANG ON THAT LONG FOR YOU, DEAR. Best of everything. Black Cohosh helps some women. Magnesium (daily) helps with PMS, and ginger root helps with cramps.
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Just droppin in to give you a hug!
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Abstinence & Celibacy
I wish this were my choice but, due to health issues, it's become too difficult for traditional sex.
Treatments
- Abstinence Working / Worked
- Its a bit lonely!
Close Chronic Pain
I've had hip and back problems since birth. Being born with a physical disability, Congenital hip dislocation, forced me to become the strong woman I am today. Try telling a child she can't run and watch her try! That was me growing up, I never give up. These days are difficult though because as time goes by the pain increases. I think my body is trying to get back at me for being so bad to it all these years!
Treatments
- Flexeril Working / Worked
- It works but it really screws with my mind. I don't like that feeling so I only use it after a muscular injury.
- Heat Working / Worked
- I sit in the hot tub every night.
- Hydrocodone Not Working
- This does not work!
- Marijuana Working / Worked
- I have used Medical marijuana for years to cope with the ever increasing pain in my hips and joints.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Helps when I find myself getting upset. Hmmmmmmmmmm
- Morphine Not Working
- HATE it!!!
- Naproxen Working / Worked
- I take an anti inflamatory called Lodine XL...the XL indicated it's a slow release drug...it is supposed to be less harmful on the stomach because it goes to the intestines before it starts to release.
- Oxycodone Not Working
- HATE it!!
- Physical Therapy Working / Worked
- I sometimes do this if I fall or get hurt some how.
- TENS Somewhat Helpful
- I used this for many years but it was such a hassle I stopped.
- Massage Working / Worked
- I treat myself to a massage from a friend who gives me a discount here at my house once a month. The second monday of the month!
Open Loneliness
It's been one let down after another for the last several years now. I think the medical issues are finally too much for them. And, I seem to attract people who are around just for what they need from me, I rarely get the emotional support I need from them. My family doesn't give a **** so I find myself alone most often.
Open Brain Injury
Twenty years ago I drove Trucks. I was tired and being pushed by my dispatcher one day and I took a load I shouldn't have. The box held 15lbs of frozen pork chops. It fell from my trailer, about 8ft above my head and struck me on the right cheek, just under the eye. The blow knocked me back and my head hit the cement. I woke up surrounded by people and found my truck backed to the dock. I had a headache from hell and could hardly stand. I wanted to lay down but closing my eyes made me sick.
Open Codependency
I'm not really clear on what co-dependancy is but I think I have that with my best friend. He and I do everything together except the intimate stuff. It bothers other guys but my friend is also my caregiver and I just can't be without him.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- We do a lot of venting since wi share the same home. If we didn't we would kill each other, I'm sure...LOL
Open Back Pain
I've had hip and back problems since birth. Being born with a physical disability, Congenital hip dislocation, forced me to become the strong woman I am today. Try telling a child she can't run and watch her try! That was me growing up, I never give up. These days are difficult though because as time goes by the pain increases. I think my body is trying to get back at me for being so bad to it all these years!
Treatments
- Acupressure Working / Worked
- This sometimes helps if I can find people who know the proper tecnique.
- Bedrest Working / Worked
- I spend a lot of time in bed. Not sleeping, but working or doing arts or even just chatting.
- Cortisone (Injection) Not Working
- Makes me gain too much weight. Use as a last resort only!
- Darvon Not Working
- HATE it!!
- Flexeril Working / Worked
- only use this when the muscles are hurting.
- Heat Working / Worked
- Hot tub works wonders!
- Hydrocodone Not Working
- HATE it!!
- Ibuprofen Working / Worked
- Morphine Not Working
- HATE it!!
- Relaxation Working / Worked
- This always helps!
- Stretching Working / Worked
- I do this every day.
Open Breakups & Divorce
I went through a terrible separation 6 years ago that nearly landed me in the state insane facility...it was a 20 year relationship with a man that said he loved me then left me for a 20 year old girl, he was 46. But, that's not good enough, I had to let it happen over and over since then. I don't know why but I believe everything they say until it's too late. That's when they break my heart again. would love to talk more...Please IM me!
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- Music always helps
- Pets Working / Worked
- I have 5, 2 dogs and 3 cats. They are the most wonderful beings in my life.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Not much in the way of family support but I have lots of people who try to help and some who are actually true friends, not just trying to help their own guilt or trying to take advantage of my kindness. My caregiver is #1 in this respect, no one does the things he does and expects nothing
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- Very helpful!
- Talking Working / Worked
- You can talk till you are blue and sometimes it just won't get them back.
- Time Working / Worked
- Time will eventually heal all wounds.
Open Caregivers
I am not a caregiver but I have a caregiver and wanted to discuss with other caregivers the feelings and hassles going through a caregivers mind.
Open Degenerative Joint Disease
This goes right along with the rhumitoid arthritus. It's amazing how your body reacts when you treat it badly. I pushed my body for years, grinding all my joints down. Now the doctor calls much of it degenerative joint disease. Figures I needed something more to bring on the pain...LOL
Open Depression
Type: Seasonal Affective DisorderIt's up and down all the time.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Did a lot of this after the head injury.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Hmmmmmmmm...
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Works well!
- Prozac Working / Worked
- HATE it!!
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Have done quite a bit of this.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Always an asset
- Writing Working / Worked
- I've done a lot of writing and I think it helps quite a bit.
Open Diabetes Type 2
Found out about 15 years ago and learned how to control it with diet, I almost never have problems anymore. I do not take medication for this anymore. I just know what I need to do these days
Treatments
- Dietary Modification Working / Worked
- never fails, fix the diet fix the diabetes
- Eating Healthier Foods Working / Worked
- works the best
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- This never hurts, I use an abdoer, it allows me to sit and helps to keep my balance so I don't fall down and go boom.
Open Dizziness & Vertigo
This goes with the headinjury I suffered 20 years ago. I still walk down the halls bouncing off the walls and occasionally falling down...go boom!!
Treatments
- Vestibular Exercises Working / Worked
- Did a lot of these in the first few years after the injury. They worked since I can actually walk now, though I sorta appear drunk.
Open Family & Friends of Bipolar
I'm worried my best friend and caregiver is bi-polar. I need to discuss this with someone who knows. Also would love to hear ideas on how to cope when it gets bad!
Open Healthy Relationships
I don't know if my relationships are healthy. Would love to discuss this with someone.
Treatments
Open Menopause
Hot sweats...totally the pits!!!
Treatments
- Bioidentical Hormones Working / Worked
- I like these
Open Mortgages & Foreclosures
Damn staying afloat is tough these days. It seems there are a lot of things against someone trying to hang on and keep their home. IM me for more information on this
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My best friend has anger issues. Over the last 3 years he's screamed right in my face a few times. I'm a strong woman and often I scream back but there are times when the things he says really hurt. At times, I truly hate him. But, and I know what you are thinking...I've thought it myself, he's trying to change. But he is, and I have quite a bit too. I don't let him do it anymore, not since I deciding a sexual relation with him wouldn't work. That's what it took, no thought of sex with him.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- Arts let me get away from the pain and the stress...I do a lot of it!
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- I have to forgive and understand it's not said from spite but from frustration. often he doesn't even know he's yelling.
- Leave Working / Worked
- I ask him to leave. We agreed we needed this if we were going to live together in harmony. He has to get out for a little while and calm down before coming and confronting me in my bedroom, where I spend most my time.
- Music Working / Worked
- Music always helps the spirit!
- Talking Working / Worked
- We do a lot of talking. I am able to remove him from the home and he knows that so he listens and is always doing better.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I went through some extreme trauma during the times of the head injury. I'm sure I don't have a bad case of ptsd but I'm sure I feel it sometimes.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- I do a lot of this as a therapy for several things
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Helped me learn how to control the anger after the head injury.
- Music Working / Worked
- I listen every day.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Years of this is what helped me to move on after the head injury.
- Reading Working / Worked
- Books, magazines, newspapers, and most important, the Internet.
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Restless Legs Syndrome
I haven't been diagnosed but I'm sure I suffer this ailment. When I am relaxing at night my legs start to feel funny and they make me want to move around.
Open Rheumatoid Arthritis
I watched my moms fingers slowly turn. I knew it would happen to me too someday and now it's here. For the last 15 years I've been fighting this disease. Mom seemed to develop it pretty slowly but I, on the other hand, have advanced much quicker. I don't do a lot anymore, everything I do makes it hurt too much. I do use a wheelchair when it gets bad. By bad I mean that a 20 step walk to the bathroom is too much to do. At those times I use the wheelchair.
Treatments
Open Self-Injury
Another area I would like to discus in private...IM me and maybe we can talk about it.
Open Sex / Pornography Addiction
This is a scary area to discuss...IM me sometime and maybe we can talk more about it. Don't IM me in hopes of anything else before you read all my other posts. if you don't you will be surprised!
Treatments
- Abstinence Working / Worked
- So far so good
Open Sleep Apnea
I started on my c-pap about 15 years ago. I was amazed at the amount of energy I felt once I got used to leaving it on all night. I am totally addicted to my c-pap machine, couldn't live without it!
Treatments
- CPAP Working / Worked
- Wonderful machine!
- Lose Weight Too Soon to Tell
- I started needing more pressure at first but I think it needs to go lower now that I've lost so much weight.
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I smoked for 20 years, quit for 10, started back up again for 2 years, quit for 5 months and now I'm smoking again. Waaaaaaaa!!!
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Not Working
- Didn't work at all!
- Commit Lozenge Working / Worked
- I like this.
- Hard Candy Working / Worked
- need sugar free candy or cough lozengers.
- Nicotine Gum Not Working
- Pulled out fillings and caps.
- Nicotine Patch Working / Worked
- Used this the first time...I stopped for 10 years using this.
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- I joined several groups. They do help!
- Willpower Working / Worked
- I am very strong willed!
