gens4's Journal

Can't say that I am doing so great with this goal. I want to free of acting on emotion, but when I am tired or hurt it is hard. Everything seems to be inflated. I hurt my ankle theother day and the pain is unbearable, I kep trying to tough it out, not wanting to bother the doctor any more than I have too and not wanting to take strong pain killers, but I am touchy about everything. An innocent remark is taken to the extreme, i know if I was feeling good, I could overcome the urge to act on my emotions, but when I hurt I guess I want everyone else to hurt. I have to get past this, so I am going to listen and not speak. I will listen twice as much and speak twice as less. I think this will work. When I feel the pain overcome me aI will pray, not cry not speak, just pray silently. Maybe tomorrow I will have a better day and will see soon that I can manage my emotions, like anger, saddness and pain.