Nice guy, that let his priorites get out of whack. Got too focused on work, paying bills, paying down debt, being serious. I developed a full blown addiction to complaining. I started to micromanage everything. I was no fun. I stopped being myself. My wife grew tired of it, said she wanted out. That set me off on a year long process of figuring out who I am and what is important in life. Now I am the best me I have ever been. But she told me it was too late, that she was leaving. I was numb with sadness, but willing to keep trying. Then I learned that she was seeing someone, despite denying it to my face regularily. The hope of reconciliation was gone and, sadly, I stopped loving her. The pain was surprisingly physical. I was a mess, but awake for the first time in ages. As long as she was still in front of me, I kept trying and stressing myself into an early grave. So I told her, "It's time for you to go."
Nice guy, that let his priorites get out of whack. Got too focused on work, paying bills, paying down debt, being serious. I developed a full blown addiction to complaining. I started to micromanage everything. I was no fun. I stopped being myself. My wife grew tired of it, said she wanted out. That set me off on a year long process of figuring out who I am and what is important in life. Now I am the best me I have ever been. But she told me it was too late, that she was leaving. I was numb with
Music, books, movies, gardening.
Music, books, movies, gardening.
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Estou cansado também. Mas sinto-me melhor quando falo com você.…
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Hey, you have the same V as me ! I just got one of those ltd. Edition Gibson Reverse V's . It's awesome.…
EastCoastAJ commented on guitarwes’s journal entry why do i gotta be this way.. 8:01am
I get what you are saying. When you are there for some one for a long time, it's hard to turn that off,…
EastCoastAJ updated their status 7:55am
With all that happened last Spring,hard to believe this is still 2009.Even...…
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Hard to believe this is still 2009. Even harder to believe that it took a...…
November 3, 2009 8:06am
I used to be somebody.
Or, at least I was going through the motions, enough to fool myself.
But I got lazy or distracted, maybe both.
Time flew on …
October 29, 2009 8:15am
For the past few days, I have been walking around with a brain cloud.
Everyone has noticed it, everyone keeps asking me what is wrong.
I thought …
September 25, 2009 11:55am
My Dad's Birthday would have been this Sunday.
Everyone is down about it, and wondering how Mom will handle it.
All of these …
August 21, 2009 11:04am
Back in the mid 90's, I got a Sears gift card as a present.
Why, at age 23, did I buy a leather briefcase is anyone's guess.
The other …
August 5, 2009 11:40am
Every time I drive the 102 outbound, I have to pass by the same pot hole.
It's right next to exit 4 B, in the right lane.
I know it is there, …
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hope your doing good today
You know why, no? Lol.....
Good Morning btw! xoxo
I hope you didn't let it get to you too much...... but if I know you.... you obsessed about it and didn't get any sleep.... Don't give her that power back! It was a crappy thing to do but it only confirmed what you already knew. She sucked!!
Chin up AJ, xoxoxo......
Hey AJ ... hope you're doing well.
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12 years together, 8 years married. Wife wants out a year ago, I tried all that I could, she insisted on moving out. Despite denying it to my face, she has been seeing someone else. I put my foot down and, hard as it was, decided to face the truth. Alone is sad, but less complicated. It's over.
