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LaraB 
10:51am, October 29, 2009
I took four weeks off from work to heal my body and my soul. My husband and I spent our vacation in a small tourist town. We enjoyed beach and sea, swimming, evening walks, summer breeze.
I was trying to rest and sleep enough, but also to stay active as well to feel better. Although the pain in my arms and shoulders is reduced, this fatigue is still strong and very unpleasant. But I feel better emotionally. I'm still learning how to let go of all negative emotions and to reduce stress, but I'm on my way to leave the past where it should be.
When I think about mom I still feel like I should have done more for her, like I haven't done enough. But now I know she forgives me and she's not mad at me. I talk with her in my dreams, she constantly keeps coming to me, I share with her everything that has been going on, and I feel she's still with me in some strange but special way.
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Hey LaraB., Glad to hear that you were able to get away for some rest & relaxation. What beautiful pictures, especially the one of your Mom. What is causing the pain in your arms & shoulders? Like you, I continue to talk to my Mom, Dad & brother on a regulary basis. I am also trying hard to "leave the past behind" & to let go of negative emotions & people. Some days are harder than others but I will keep trying. The relationship that I was in is pretty much over. We want different things out of life. I want to travel, move out of New York City and pretty much focus my (our) life around things that would bring me(us)joy & pleasure. He is pretty much content to stay here, never really want to go anywhere or do anything...and that's fine for him, just not for me but I STRONGLY belive that at the right time, God will bring someone special for me to share my life with in the meantime I plan on taking the time to do the things that make me happy.
"Wishing you all the Best -- Talk to you soon!!"
Bone2110
Bone2110
Lara I'm glad you were able to rest and relax with your husband. I hope it brought you great healing. You are right, your Mom is not angry with you. You are so lucky to see her in your dreams. I have only seen my Mom once and she'll be gone one year on Sept. 1. Your Mom IS with you. Smiles, Chris
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