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  • About Me

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    Ciora

    Female, 29
    Hobart, AUS
    Member since December 3, 2008

  • Recent Activity

    Recently:

    • 2 hugs received, 1 discussion post

    Yesterday

    November 15

    November 11

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  • Journal

    • Double Trouble Day

      Mood June 1, 2009 8:05am

       I've just had my first day at double trouble- watching 10 month old Nina and 2 month old Emma at the same time. It went more smoothly than …

    • Confusion (For Rape Members)

      Mood April 22, 2009 11:11pm

      Looking at my daughter as I was giving her a bath this morning, some things finally hit home for me. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately on …

    • Losing Bradley

      Mood March 6, 2009 8:53pm

      The car accident in 1999 was the most painful experience I could ever go through. Bradley and I had been best friends since I was 7 years old. He was …

    • Don't want to be silent anymore

      Mood March 6, 2009 8:02pm

      I was raped many times during my life. At the age of ten, my virginity was stolen by three of my brother's friends just for the simple fact that …

    • Hurricane Andrew

      Mood December 5, 2008 2:19am

      In 1992, D- my brother and sister's mom- had invited my brother and I to stay with her for the summer in Key West, Florida. I had worked hard to …

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    • Thanks

      From dulcylee Yesterday

      I just wanted to say thank you for the advice & comment about the Bumgenius diapers. I think I might make the plunge! Thanks again!

    • Hug

      From Franny7 Yesterday

      Pls read my journal entry for today. Did they remove my messages from your mailbox too?I have several confirmations that they are going to my friends' mail, and removing my personal e-mails! Good grief. I would not be surprised if they closed my account altogether. Please send me a personal e-mail address just in case!

    • Hug

      From phloxinsox November 14

      Just noticed your comment, Ciora. Thank you.

      I am in another bad place. True, I did not believe, after moving here, that the location of the apartment was safe or good for me; but I was not prepared to leave just yet. Pattern of triggers occurring in every place that I go is very concerning. Seemingly, trauma being exploited. Triggers appear to be relied on as weapons to threaten and/or to motivate. I now have 2 1/2 weeks to find a place to live, and faced with the possibility of homelessness again. This has gone on too long, Ciora. All I have wanted was to find a safe place. I just want to feel safe!

      I am petrified and not doing very well. I have moved 18 times since I first moved here 7 years ago--and each time, I have faced homelessness or wound up homeless. Will be packing today, and trying to bring my system to a place where I can function better.

      I hope you are good. Thank you for seeing my hand when I reached out. A seemingly small thing, but it matters.

    • Sorry

      From phloxinsox October 3

      Ciora,

      I'm so sorry this happened, but was glad to read that they weren't hurt. How scary! I hope you will be okay. Sometimes it just takes a little time and some TLC.

      You're in my thoughts this morning.


    • Hug

      From bgranny October 3

      Glad you and your family are safe!

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  • Support Groups

    • Close Rape

      I was raped by three of my brother's friends when I was 10. My step-father, who knew me since I was 8 months old and adopted me when I was 2, assaulted (very close to rape- I think it can be considered molestation) while I was recovering from a serious car accident. Mind you, I was in a wheelchair at the time and was still recovering from the loss of my fiancee- a good friend of mine that I knew from my childhood. I was only 19 years old. There is much more to the story. (Out of room) :)

    • Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

      I have a series of personal problems. Rape, physical, mental, and sexual abuse. I distrust therapists, so therapy is not an option for me. I have handled my problems fine on my own until this year... when I had my first child. For some reason, I find myself plagued with new problems. I cannot make the simplest of decisions, the slightest sound makes me jump three feet in the air- and terrifies me. To make a long story short, I want to get to the bottom of my problem and overcome it.

    • Open Parenting Newborns & Infants (0-1)

      Gave birth to my first baby girl on my birthday- 29/07/08.

      Treatments

      Breast Feeding Not Working
      I had to stop breastfeeding when my daughter turned 8 weeks. She was a small baby at birth- 1.179 kg. She simply was not getting enough nutrition from my milk and I had to switch to formula. The instant that I did, she shot up to a perfect average weight and height. She also didn't have to be feeding 20 hours out of the day!
    • Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

      My parents both abused me physically and mentally throughout my childhood. I've also been in a few relationships where I was psychologically abused.

      Treatments

      Art Working / Worked
      Its such a way to get out emotions. I am not as active as I once was, but I am sure that will change as my daughter gets to a workable age (She is 5 months)
      Group Therapy Not Working
      Everyone in my family is stubborn. We've tried on many occasions- it was just not working for us.
      Leave Working / Worked
      It worked in both situations. I left my ex- within days of becoming common law married.
      Music Working / Worked
      I always have music going.
      Talking Working / Worked
      This works at my lowest moments if I can't fix the problem myself.
    • Open Breastfeeding

      I breastfed my daughter for two months and had to stop. I'm debating on whether I want to pick it up again.

    • Open Stress Management

      I get stressed overly easy. I have a 5 month old daughter and a perfect husband and I don't want to take out my feelings on them. (I love them too much)

      Treatments

      Physical Exercise Working / Worked
      Whenever I'm extremely stressed, I find myself cleaning the whole house- top to bottom. I don't even know how I got into this habit, but strangely... it works for me
    • Open Bereavement
      Type: Loss of a Partner/Spouse

      I lost my best friend in 1999 in a serious car accident. He was also my fiancee- had only proposed the week before. I was too busy trying to heal from my own injuries to truly come to terms with the loss. Since then, I have married a wonderful man and had a baby girl. I'm finding it difficult to cope with my old feelings of loss and my new feelings of joy.

      Treatments

      Helping Others Somewhat Helpful
      I used to work in two volunteer programs- both working with disabled children.
      Music Working / Worked
      I used inspirational music to help pull me through the hardest of times. While I was in physical and occupational therapy, I used to listen to Pat Benetar. My therapists were amazed at how much it helped.
      Pets Somewhat Helpful
      After I established a new life of my own, the first thing I had done was go out and get a baby kitten. Mistress brought so much joy to my life- at the time I was unable to have children due to my physical injuries.
      Time Somewhat Helpful
      I can't say that time has healed my wounds. If I sit down and work through the memories, I get as tearful as if it had happened yesterday. I'd say that time has more so taught me understanding.
    • Open Incest Survivors

      I was sexually molested at the age of 19 by my dad. Shortly after that, a lot of things "clicked"- I realized that a lot of his behavior and things that he had done in the past were really a form of abuse.

    • Open Interfaith Relationships

      I am Asatru. Most people don't even know what it is. If you have any questions about it, feel free to ask. My husband on the other hand, is confused about his religious beliefs.

    • Open Accidents

      I was in a severe car accident in 1999. If you want to know more, read my journal. The list of injuries was long and I have lots and lots of hardware.

      Treatments

      Physical Therapy Somewhat Helpful
      It helped me recover enough right after the accident, but it didn't do much to help the extent of my injuries or the arthritis I get.
    • Open Family Issues

      Can't they make these boxes bigger?!?

      Treatments

      Family Therapy Not Working
      Been on this path so many times. Therapists did more damage than they did help.
      Music Working / Worked
      Used to work in the past
      Talking Somewhat Helpful
      If thing got too bad at home, I'd turn to a good friend. Mostly though, it turned into discussions on how to help my problems instead of what actually had happened to me. I deal with problems well on my own.
      Writing Working / Worked
      I used to voice my thoughts in songs and poetry.
    • Open Insomnia

      I've struggled with insomnia since my early teens. On average, I get about 2-4 hours of sleep a night. I'm here now to see what alternatives there are in finding ways to sleep through the night. I have an 8 month old daughter and I cannot rely on medication to put me to sleep.

      Treatments

      Counting Sheep Not Working
      I think this helped me form an incredible gift of memorizing numbers that I see. I concentrate more on counting and it keeps me awake!
      Lavender Not Working
      Oils and scents may work on my daughter, but not me!
      Meditation Not Working
      I meditate on a daily basis, although I do not have the chance to do it as much as I used to. It never really helped me.
      Music Not Working
      My daughter has a MP3 player that plays soothing lullabies and children songs all night. I can hear it from my bedroom, but it doesn't help.
      Passion Flower Not Working
      Had this recommended to me by a friend. It didn't work.
      Reading Not Working
      If anything, this keeps me up even later. I'm a speed reader and can finish about 1300 pages in a day, if not more. Its a waste for me to be buying books all of the time to keep me occupied. I hardly ever put a book down before finishing it.
    • Open Parenting Toddlers (1-3)

      My daughter was born July 29, 2008.

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