ppbbls's Journal

This is the last time.  No more doctors guessing.  No more telling me what might be wrong with me.  No more prescriptions on top of prescriptions on top of prescriptions.  No more doctors telling me that another doctor is wrong only to have another doctor tell me that yet that doctor was wrong.  They are all crooks.  I have seen them all.  I have tried everything.  All they have done is experimented on me.  Experimental procedures.  Expensive exams to rule out that they probably already knew wasn't there in the first place.  Hundreds of needles.  Dozens of injections.  Filling my body with poison.  What is a side effect effect and what is a symptom?  I can't tell anymore and neither can the doctors.  And when then run out of tests to run they refer me to their partners.  The process never ends.  The only thing that happens is their wallets get fatter. 

I have lost all faith and trust in the medical community as a whole.  I am disgusted.  Patients in pain are easy targets.  Doctors know how desperate we are.  They convince us to try anything in order to feel better.  They are shameless.  They have no scruples.  They are criminal.  God will see to it that they get what they deserve in the end. 

After all of this time searching, trying everything - the one thing that does help is pain medication.  If I hurt - I take it as needed and I get moving again.  I'm done poisoning my body with 10 different prescriptions for conditions that doctors say I have but don't get any better with these "miracle drugs".  I'm done wasting my time filling my schedule with non stop dr appointments.  I'm going to take care of my own body - and put it in god's hands from now on.  Seriously.  If I hurt I will treat the pain and if it something more serious I will let God take care of it.  I feel free already.