Now I have cancer !!!
January 19, 2009 10:49pm
Well It's been a while for me in the update department. There is a lot to tell and a lot of things have changed since my last entry. …
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Simpleman1973 
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About Me
Simpleman1973
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About Me
Well a friend of mine suggested I come here to maybe get some help. I was sexually abused as a child and thought that i had put that away in the back of my mind for good until recently I saw the man that abused me after more than twenty years since the abuse stopped. I am also going through a midlife crisis right now as a direct result I believe of being diagnosed with an enlarged prostate. The Doctor lead me to believe that unless I take this medication I was certainly going to get prostate cancer. I stopped taking the medication because it was affecting my mind and making me suicidal and depressed. I've subsequently learned that I do not have prostate cancer nor will I with BPH. But for a period of about a month I thought I had it until my friend enlightened me otherwise. I've since contacted the doctor and told him where to go. I am having crippling attacks of anxiety sometimes several times a day several times a week about what happened to me as a child and neither my wife nor my friend know what to do. I've tried dealing with it on my own and I've tried to bottle those memories up again and store them in the farthest reaches of my mind. Hopefully I can get some assistance from this sight to help me manage what seems to be like the nightmare that I am living in.
Well a friend of mine suggested I come here to maybe get some help. I was sexually abused as a child and thought that i had put that away in the back of my mind for good until recently I saw the man that abused me after more than twenty years since the abuse stopped. I am also going through a midlife crisis right now as a direct result I believe of being diagnosed with an enlarged prostate. The Doctor lead me to believe that unless I take this medication I was certainly going to get prostate cancer.
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Interests
Music - I play in a band, sports, fishing and going out dancing.
Music - I play in a band, sports, fishing and going out dancing.
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Journal Entry for December 11, 2008
December 11, 2008 7:20pm
Today hasn't been easy for me at all. I don't know why but it really seems as if the walls are crumbling down around me and I'm …
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Day at the Beach
December 7, 2008 7:28pm
Well today I went to the beach with my friend. we set up a time to go so I could talk to her about what had happened to me and discuss my abuse with …
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Journal Entry for December 6, 2008
December 6, 2008 1:47pm
Well I missed an entry and I apologize. Okay let me give you a brief rundown on the last two days. On the night of the 4th I got home and …
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Journal Entry for December 4, 2008
December 4, 2008 9:59am
Well I woke up this morning with a feeling of "Oh Shit" here we go again!!! I texted my friend and told her that I was feeling this …
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Type: Loss of a ChildIt's been nearly seven years since I lost my baby boy Christopher. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him. I don't think I have allowed myself to grieve his passing because I was always trying to comfort my wife and help her deal with her loss as well.
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- Time Working / Worked
Open Prostate Cancer
Treatments
- Chemotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Just started my first week on treatments. Not sure yet if there has been any success yet.
