StrangePenelope's Journal

Yeah so I haven't written for a long time.  I've been caught up in school and fortunately everything was going pretty smoothly for a while.

Well now school is ending which means I need a job.  I've been working on getting a job for the fall for a while now.  I had some prospects for this summer but they both fell through.  My boyfriend had to put down his elderly dog a few weeks ago, she was in a lot of pain too;  his dad broke his collar bone; work is being stressful for him; his headaches have come back; the hospital is sending rediculous bills.  So he's in a horrible mood.  

I'm worried about the future.  Moreover I always have a lot of trouble with transitions, whether good or bad ones.  With my boyfriend's mood being so awful I'm easily influenced and hurt by him.  I wish I weren't!  This is a time when I wish I could just sqaush my high sensitivity!

Anyway, I'm just feeling really bad right now.  And worst of all my feelings of despair and hopelessness make me feel like nothing will ever get better.  I know its a lie, but I don't feel that way.

I just want to feel okay again.  But don't we all.