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StrangePenelope 
2:52pm, November 13, 2009
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I think I'm going a little crazy right now. I am tired of being alone ALL the time. You know, I like my alone time. But when I'm getting a couple of hours or so of interaction with my boyfriend a day . . . and (other than store clerks and calling my mom) that's the only human interaction I get. Well then come to a day like today when I don't get any time with my boyfriend because of his therapist appt in a town an hour away. Well I just end up SO depressed. I feel like my entire day was pointless and tomorrow will probably be just like it. Like right now, I'm just sitting here crying.
Fortunately this situation will change in about three weeks (Thank goodness) and then I'll be busy, busy, busy I'm sure. And since I'll be teaching . . . all I'll have is human interaction all day!
Problem is I STILL don't have any friends in this town apart from my boyfriend. Gosh I hope I make at least one at work . . maybe . . . or even two or three (might I be dreaming?). I mean real friends, hence the low the number.
The prospect of teaching high school still feels so vague and surreal, but in four weeks I'll be teaching. Eeeek. I can't quite wrap my head around it. I wish I could enjoy this time before life becomes crazy. Instead I'm anxious and depressed more because of all the alone time. Bah.
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Awwwww....well if we lived in the same town you know I would be there. Psh we would be awesome friends in person. But for now I completely understand how you are feeling. You will for sure make friends at work though.
Until then maybe find a coffee shop or hobby to frequent. Join the local rec or gym. You will meet people in a flash. You have to get yourself out there if you want to make friends. They aren't gonna come knockin on your front door! lol
Just try to simmer a little bit. Get in some good R&R before you start teaching and once you do start teaching I'm sure you will be feeling much much better. You will have more structure in the days and be around people all the time. You're going to be a great teacher!
You can always come up here and hang out with me. I just quit my job so I have lots of free time! I'll even send directions!!!! lol :D
Angels20
Oh btw.....you are not whining. You are genuinely feeling this way and expressing yourself is appropriate and healthy. You seem to have a tendency to feel guilty for your feelings. WHY!? If it is how you feel then EXPRESS IT! Don't feel guilty. It is most certainly NOT whining and your journal has validity to it.
Even IF it is whining you have the right to do so. ;)
Angels20