A little whining.
July 2, 2009 10:48pm
I think I'm going a little crazy right now. I am tired of being alone ALL the time. You know, I like my alone time. But when …
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StrangePenelope
2:52pm, November 13, 2009
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About Me
StrangePenelope
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About Me
I live with my darling one and a half year old German Shepherd; her presence in my life is literally a lifesaver. I'm currently on my way to becoming a high/middle school Math teacher. I hope to start working fall '09. I spend most of my free time with my wonderful boyfriend and of course walking/playing with my dog. I grew up on a Caribbean island and moved to the Southern U.S. when I was 13 . . . talk about culture shock! I'm a shy person but try really hard to do things outside my comfort zone (sometimes). I'm a little crazy once you get to know me though. I have a degree in History and English Literature and I love both. Finally I'm an INFP and this profile is rather good: http://www.geocities.com/lifexplore/infp.htm.
I live with my darling one and a half year old German Shepherd; her presence in my life is literally a lifesaver. I'm currently on my way to becoming a high/middle school Math teacher. I hope to start working fall '09. I spend most of my free time with my wonderful boyfriend and of course walking/playing with my dog. I grew up on a Caribbean island and moved to the Southern U.S. when I was 13 . . . talk about culture shock! I'm a shy person but try really hard to do things outside my comfort zone
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Interests
I like reading (of course) these days its mostly mystery novels, humor, and historical novels. I occasionally delve into the video game world, I did before, but now its all around me because my boyfriend is a gamer. I love nature. I'm a bit of a dreamer. I used to paint and draw a lot but not so much now.
I like reading (of course) these days its mostly mystery novels, humor, and historical novels. I occasionally
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Recent Activity
November 13
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StrangePenelope updated their status 2:52pm
How do I always forget just how terrible being truly depressed is?…
November 12
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StrangePenelope changed their mood to Bad 4:07pm
May 2
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StrangePenelope turned 25 12:00am
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Journal Entry for May 3, 2009
May 3, 2009 12:10pm
Yeah so I haven't written for a long time. I've been caught up in school and fortunately everything was going pretty smoothly for a …
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Hugbook
I’m With You
My thoughts and prayers are always with you my friend.
Ray of Sunshine
Hey! That's what I figured you were doing. How's the prep work coming along? Getting excited?
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Ray of Sunshine
Well just try to eat healthy and find some other activity to preoccupy you when you are bored. It's hard because of your injury. I'm sure you're right when you start work it'll be much much easier.
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Hug
WOOO-HOOO that sounds like a great day! DQ is awesome. Hey the k-9 club sounds awesome. That's good you go to the gym and furniture shopping sounds awesome. Hope your 4th is going well. :D
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Ray of Sunshine
Sometime I wish we lived closer together because I'm sure we would make great friends. Wish I could come cheer you up. But I think you're a long drive away so here's a sunshine hug instead! lol :) Hope your spirits are higher today an I am sending happy thoughts your way.
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI've been struggling with depression for quite a few years. In the beginning I wanted to pretend like it was just a phase in my life that would go away. But that didn't happen, everytime I thought I was "better" the bottom would drop out again and I would spiral back downward. My worst depressive episode occured in the spring of 2007. Since then I've seen two different therapists for a certain lenght of time, I'm on a fairly workable medicine regimin, and I exercise regularly.
Treatments
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
- I must have felt better, because after I got off of it I spiraled back downwards. I have vague memories, partially because all I ever wanted to do on these meds was sleep. This was partially nice for me since one of my depression symptoms is inability to sleep. I really did spend most of my time in bed though. And I had some pretty funky withdrawal symptoms when I weaned myself off of it.
- Prozac Somewhat Helpful
- Prozac was too little too late when I started taking it. Taking 80mg (max dose) of this stuff a day still didn't stop me from desperately wanting to die. In addition I'm pretty sure it was the prozac that gave me uncontrollable tremors. I still have the remnants of that shakiness. I still take 20mg a day in combination with my other meds. Mostly because when I try to wean myself off completely there are unpleasant results.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- I find this drug extremely helpful. Although anti-depression drugs usually need to build up to be truly effective, the morning after the first night I took it, I woke up feeling like a different person. Now I was still pretty low, but it at least seemed to drag me out of the bottomless black pit I had been living in. This isn't a miracle drug, I still live with some depression, but I perfectly able to function in life and I still feel like myself--not like some drugged up zombie.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- BuSpar Working / Worked
- I use this in addition to my antidepression meds in order to combat my anxiety. Doing this is very helpful since I feel like anxiety leads to depression for me. Also I think my antidepression meds may make me more anxious. It is a stated side effect.
Open Seasonal Affective Disorder
Well I'm always kind of depressed, but it definitely gets worse in winter. In fact, all 3 of my major depressive episodes occured in jan/feb/march. I'm like a plant . . . I need the sun!!
Open Healthy Relationships
1.5 yrs with my fiancee and not living together. He still lives with his parents, but has a good steady job and is looking to buy a house.
Treatments
Open Healthy Eating
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