Journal

Today is a really crappy day.  I'm out of meds for my back and the drug my pdoc, put me on BENZTROPINE 1MG x  3 times a day, isn't helping my anxiety.  He also wants me to reduce my Abilify by 30 MGs at night I take 60 now.  I'm scared shitless because Abilify has helped me to control my mania.  My Dr usually listens very well to my complaints.  He almost always has a solution to my problem BP.  This time I think he's off base the signs I am exhibting are anxiety.  He thinks because of the Abilify.  I checked to see when Abilify  would cause this problem and it would have occurred when I first started taking it over a year ago now.  I am so pissed and frustrated I could scream.  I think I will just scream my head off  AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Right now I have "some" Ativan so I'm not completely off the hook but if a didn't have that I'd be in a bad way.  Called PDOC he upped the Benztropine by a mg a day and dropped my abilify by 30 mg a day.  Tomorrow morning will be interesting to say the least

Cheers

Just got the results of my MRI and although the news is not all good it is mostly positive.  Bone spurs and bulging disc (not sure which disc).  Although my DDD has proceeded further it was not as bad as the Dr. and I had thought.  Best news is only need to start with PT not a steroid shot or surgery(my biggest fear).  Although my back is still hurting me I am getting better day by day.

Yeahhhhhhh!!!!!!