Had Enough !
November 18, 2009 3:22pm
Me and John have split up
Ive been threatened with the Social Services by my Health Visitor because of Johns anger. We had an incident …
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buttonzz
5:02am, October 6, 2009
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About Me
buttonzz
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About Me
Im a full time Mum to one gawjus 16 month old little boy called Benjamin. I had a miscarriage last year and as of yet I havent dealt with it. I suffer from depression and have been self harming for over 2 years now & have recently come out of a violent relationship. Im with someone new now and finding it very difficult not to live in the past especially when my present fiance also has anger issues..........
Im a full time Mum to one gawjus 16 month old little boy called Benjamin. I had a miscarriage last year and as of yet I havent dealt with it. I suffer from depression and have been self harming for over 2 years now & have recently come out of a violent relationship. Im with someone new now and finding it very difficult not to live in the past especially when my present fiance also has anger issues..........
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Interests
Im quite a shy person but once I get to know someone Im always there to lend an ear or shoulder to cry on. I love to read and listen to music, but more than anything I love being with my little boy. I love going round charity shops with my best mate, we have a right laugh and find some great bargains!
Im quite a shy person but once I get to know someone Im always there to lend an ear or shoulder to cry
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November 19
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Thank you mommyoflily. Your right his hugs and kisses always make me feel better :) I know I made the…
November 18
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Me and John have split up Ive been threatened with the Social Services by my Health Visitor because of…
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Journal Entry for November 2, 2009
November 2, 2009 2:49pm
Not having a great time at the moment.
Everyone I know is either pregnant or have recently had babies. I feel such awful thought towards them …
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Journal Entry for October 19, 2009
October 19, 2009 1:39pm
Went to hospital today.
I've got to go through all the tests I went through when I was 18 just so they can confirm what I already know. I've …
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Journal Entry for October 13, 2009
October 13, 2009 3:03pm
I'm feeling so crap at the moment. I'm having so many mood swings at the minute and I can feel down and cryey at the drop of a hat !
I'm …
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Journal Entry for October 10, 2009
October 10, 2009 2:40pm
Things have been abit tense around my house for a while. John took his anger out on Benjamin in a bad way a few weeks back. He's agreed to …
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Little Love
LOVE TO YOU AND BENJAMIN,LUCY....
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thankyou hun xx
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im still up n dwn but im trying 2 keep fighting!...xx
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Well Done
i knew u wud be anyways hun xx
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Support Groups
Close Infertility
I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome when I was 18 and told I would never have children. My right ovary is completely f****d. The hospital told me there was no treatment for it.
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
I was in a long term relationship with my ex fiance for nearly 5 years. During this time he was pysically, emotionaly, sexually, mentally and verbally abusive. His family were also abusive towards me. After splitting with him I found a new partner who also turned out to have an anger issue and was abusive towards me, he is going to an anger management group every week now to try and change his anger.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- I attended a group session for 12 weeks and it was fantastic. Was wonderful to talk to other ladies who had been or still were in the same situation as me. Now its over though I feel like Iv been thrown in at the deep end and feel like Im slowly sinking.
- Abuse Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- I spoke to a counsellor & although nothing happened it was a relief to get it all off my chest.
- Forgiveness Not Working
- Never works. A lepoard never changes its spots.
- Leave Somewhat Helpful
- Still getting texts and phonecalls and theres only so many times i can change my phone number !
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
Well due to infertility I am trying to lose weight as advised by the hospital. I used to weigh....16 stone (wow that was hard to admit) I now weigh 13 stone 9lbs. I have lost 2stone somat in around 8 months. It was the hardest thing i have ever done. 12/04/2009 - still trying to loose more weight. Hardest thing in the world to do when battaling PCOS which makes you gain excessive amounts of weight !!
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Not Working
- Keep away from fat, sugar, carbohydates, sweets, choc basically don't eat.. verdict... crap
- Physical Exercise Somewhat Helpful
- Pushing a buggy EVERYWHERE helps lol
- Slim-Fast Not Working
- Too expensive
- Weight Watchers Not Working
- Too expensive
Open Self-Injury
I started harming myself last year. I began by biting myself to ease the pain of whatever I was going thrugh back then. Over the past few days i have started cutting myself with scissors. Its like dragging the blade across my arm makes the pain go away for a split second. I dont feel anything and I like that feeling so I do it more and more......
Open Pregnancy
Hi..I am currently 27 weeks pregnant with my first child..a little boy..it came as a huge shock as I was diagnosed with PCOS when I was 18 and currently awaiting IVF but apparently miracles do happen!
Open Pregnancy After Loss/Infertility
I have a 1 year old son after being told I would never have children :) I had a miscarriage last year at 7weeks. It was the hardest thing i have ever had to go through and i wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- Gives you headache
Open Single Parenting
I am 36 weeks pregnant with my first child, recently singled because my ex would rather talk to lil girls on the internet...Feeling very scared about bringing my child up on my own... my son is now 16 months old and technically I am stilla single parent but I do now have a partner who is fantastic with Benjamin althou unfortunatly has anger problems himself.
