41 days
October 29, 2009 12:35am
Haven't written in a while so I am definately overdue. Just back from the Men's step group. I am greting so much from it. It has been …
nycflyer
12:23am, October 29, 2009
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nycflyer
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About Me
I have struggled against addiction and alcoholism for many years, often with long, healthy periods of success. Lately things in my life have become difficult and sad, and I have found myself turning to old comforts and behaivior patterns to cope, none of which have been good for me in the past.
I have struggled against addiction and alcoholism for many years, often with long, healthy periods of success. Lately things in my life have become difficult and sad, and I have found myself turning to old comforts and behaivior patterns to cope, none of which have been good for me in the past.
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I am doing alright yeah hopefully going to get better. How are you? havn't heard from you in a while. tc
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Hey hon-how's it going?
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I'm sorry your mother has cancer. My mom,best friend,passed away from lung cancer in Feb. Hoping to find comfort here & give/receive support~GOD BLESS
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Hey my friend! It makes me sad to see hwo you are treating your body. It is your temple! Sorry to hear about your mother, you must get clean because she will have wanted her son to be healthy and happy and inhalents don't make you happy..Think back to when you were three years clean, take 5 minutes and close your eyes and really think how amazing that felt. Don't stress about if you have a job or not..you could look at it as meeting new people, a new enviroment and a new start. I am here for you always.
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Yeah, I've been making some changes and keeping them up. Tell me how things can get better for you again and how you've been :) I want you to feel as good as I do
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Close Alcoholism
Been fighting alcoholism for many years. Repeat relapses have taken their toll on my self esteem, but I seem to be building momentum, as they are fewer and farther apart. Seems I want more for myself and am finding some self worth. Enjoying watching my day count grow.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- CMA and AA. I have found my richest and most succesful times of sobriety have been when immersed in Step work. I am now in a very strong, Step based AA group, attending a 0700 meeting each morning. I meet with my sponsor and a group of men and we have a step group independant of the AA meetings, where we focus solely on Step work. I love it and am feeling the liberation that comes from working the program.
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- I am humbled by the calibur of sobriety in the group I attend. I have had to find some surrender and humility. When I can remain teachable, I receive such wisdom. Perhaps the best thing I have done for myself in years.
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- Tapering never worked for me. I just don't have the control. When I say cold turkey, it has to be in conjunction with AA.
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Always feel stronger and more esteem when I stay fit. also the physical exercise burns off anger and the difficult emotions that come up in recovery work.
- Residential Treatment Center Working / Worked
- Did rehab twice, once I started to focus on the steps and accepted that I wasn't just learning to drink effectively, I started to see it as training toward the future.
- Sleep Working / Worked
- A big trigger is anxiety and my (treated) bi-polar. Rest is essential to alieviating those symptoms before I have to act out.
- Willpower Somewhat Helpful
- While I realize I can't do it all myself, I also understand that I have some accountability as well.
Close Meth Addiction & Recovery
About to have three years off the shit!!!!! Hoping to KEEP it that way!!!!
Open Inhalant Abuse & Recovery
Discovered inhalants about ten years ago loking for a higher high than poppers. Had a good time, and left it in the past. Then decided to give it a go one day and found it a great way to truly "check out". Total blankness and oblivion, thus freedom from feeling. Neurological damage and partial paralysis followed. Also lost speach ability for a time.
Open Family & Friends of Cancer Patients
My mom went to the hospital for what we thought was simply arthritis pain. A week later, we have learned it is actually stage 3 inopperable lung cancer.
Open Caregivers
Recently moved home to my childhood home in California from New York to take care of my mom who has lung cancer. leaving behind a partner who is supposed to be joining at some point. I have a job that requires me to commute weekly between Los Angeles and New York.
