Yesterday
May 22, 2009 6:40am
Yesterday was a hard day and I wanted to sit down with Youtube and the foot fetish channels but I didn't. I made it through.. Yay. I …
matthewstitt49259 
12:43am, September 1, 2009
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About Me
matthewstitt49259
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About Me
I am an IT Professional. Father of four and husband of one. I've dealt with depression most of my life. I think I have a handle on it...that is until something bad happens.
I am an IT Professional. Father of four and husband of one. I've dealt with depression most of my life. I think I have a handle on it...that is until something bad happens.
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Interests
Writing, Art and Computers.
Writing, Art and Computers.
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Recent Activity
November 8
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matthewstitt49259 commented on verano’s journal entry Relapse 6:58pm
I wonder about that myself sometimes. I wonder if I would become a monster if I stopped caring. I feel…
July 19
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matthewstitt49259 turned 35 12:00am
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Letter to God
February 8, 2009 8:46pm
Dear God,
I don’t know if you’ll ever get this but I thought I’d write it anyways. Let me get …
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Dear Matthew, It looks like the medicine is working for me. I feel uninterested in going on dates all the time. My sex drive is way down for several days now. I don't know why it took so long to get me on a therapeutic dose, but finally I have it. No disasters yet. I am looking for a teaching job on craigslist. Yesterday I actually did yard work. I'm so glad to be back to normal. As far as the marriage goes, I will take it slow. I don't know if I will stay with it or leave. I realize I have a lot of blessings here with Carl. It would be a lot to give up. And I know Carl really loves me. I just wish he had been more honest with me from the start.
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So sweet! Happy St. Patty's Day to you too. I definitely have suggestions for NYC trip next year,, but I don't have time right now. I'll get to it. the medicine is not working now. I don't know why. I'm just a nymph. I'm sad, because I really thought I was going to get my life to become managable. I wanted to focus on career. I don't know, but I wasn't feeling well those two days, so maybe that's why my sex drive went away for a bit. I was having nausea and slight headaches. I think it was a stomach virus I was exposed to. Not sure. Feeling sick went away now. I'm back to all the craziness. It's just bizarre that my whole thinking has changed back. What is causing this shift in my personality?!! I don't understand it. It sucks.
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Shout Out
Keep it up, man. Freedom from this slavery is not gonna be easy, but it helps knowing that we're both fighting.
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When the world seems like it will fall apart, remember that God is right behind you and so are all your friends on DS.
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random hugs! :)
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Close Depression
Type: Seasonal Affective DisorderI have dealt with depression most of my life. I think I have been successful at defeating it mmost of the time. I do still have anxiety, and a lack of confidence. I get to feeling like I just need to sit for a long time and think of nothing. If it wasn't for my kids and wife I would be lost...
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- I write all the time whether its about my problems or about my fictional ambitions.
Close Sex / Pornography Addiction
I have have a foot fetish since I was 11. I have dealt with the fact that I feel odd and out of place in my social situations. My fetish stemmed off into the internet when I was 18 and it gets worse or better depending on my moods.
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