bb48's Journal

i awoke this morning with a better feeling and am trying to hold onto this.  went to work but only had one patient so i finished early and am going to try to get to the gym earlier than usual. my trainer cancelled today so the workout maybe a bit more difficult. i actually sent an e-mail off to some new career move i might want to take. keeping quiet about it because if my so gets wind he will have a fit. he just expects me to fit into this nurse mold which just is crippling &,oh, incidentally we do not get along. at all. i tried to phone my shrink to get in earlier this week but the blasted line is always busy, guess everybody feels crappy.

i have an airline ticket to the beach for a couple days in march & am wondering if i should go? my so will have a fit if i leave because he doesn't know about it but i really need some serenity, toes in the sand, but, also don't know if i trust my mood. i will be alone which on one hand is good (my homelife, even though it is only my so and two cats) is so riddled and stressful so it would be peaceful but might be just too desolate & lonely.