nursedeborah's Journal

I am so full of fear, and anxiety right now due to this medication, and my trying to get off of it.

 It causes you to have anxiety more when on it, and so many bad thing happen to you as well.

I just became a Zombie, afraid of life, people, leaving my home, couldn't get things taken care of that really needed to be done. I just couldn't find it withint me to do anything at all.

Then I discovered that hard way that it was this antidepressant that I was on, and when the octor cut it in half I really started to lose it on day 6. Oh my God the withdrawls are so awful, and you get electrical shocks to you head, teeth, sweating, abdmonial pain, itching, nightmares, can't concentrate, anxiety. The list goes on, and on. Some of the withdrawls are just like being on it.

Doctors don't know about the withdrawls, or the side effects so you are not believed, they just think it you, and your nuts. Then I found a place that so many other were having the same problem, and found that my brain had to have this drug, without it I would have horrible withdrawls. There I found a way to slowly wean myself off this stuff, but it's still so hard, and you just feel like your crawling out of your skin, and going insane again.

It is better now that I have less of this drug in me, but I still am just having such a terrible time with the withdrawls. They say they can last up to 2 years for some people. It also does not matter how long you have been on this drug, it still will cause the same to happen to a person.

All this time I thought there was something so wrong with me, only to find out my condition was brough on my a horrible drug. I know I could be repeating myself, or not be making any sense right now, that what it does to you.

I am just scared!!! What will happen to me. What has it done to me? When will it stop?

Debbie