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nursedeborah 
2:52pm, June 27, 2009
I am a real mess right now, and can't get anything done. I just spent 2 days in bed that were so awful, and all I could do was sleep, and take my anxiety meds. This has hit me so very hard, and I don't know what to do with it alll. I had not talked to her in 5 years due to my being angry with her, and I don't know that I would have talked to her again, it's just that I still loved her very much, and it's making it so I am very unable to function. I have a hard enough time as it is in life wil all my phobia's, and mental healthissues, I just didn't nee another.
What do I do to help myselfs, I am just so uncomfortable, and losing ground. I have never lost anyone close to me. I never knew it would ne like this, I am just falling apart little by little.
Grieving is so hard to do, it was what she used to do for everyone, walk us through this.
Debbie
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GOOD MORNING DEBBIE.I KNOW THE GRIEVE.MY DAUGHTER,WAS IN REMISSION WITH THE CANCER,JUST HAD ALL CANCER REMOVED,DOING WELL,THEN SHE LOST HER HUSBAND.IT GRIEVED,OUR SOULS.I HAVE SEEN MY DAUGHTER,WITH DRAWING,FROM LIFE.WE HAVE PRAYED AND PRAYED,FAR HER,SHE IS RAISING THEIR 11,YEAR OLD GIRL.
SHE HAS BECOME A VERY STRONG,PERSON.I STILL SEE THE HURT IN HER EYES.THE HAND OF THE LORD,HAS BROUGHT HER THROUGH.RIGHT BEFORE WE LOST OUR SON/ON/LAW/MY HUSBAND LOST HIS DAD,THE NEXT DAY,I LOST MINE.MY HEAD WAS SPINNING.LORD,I DON,T UNDERSTAND,ALL OF THIS,ONE AFTER ANOTHER.THE LORD,SPOKE TO ME,JUST TO HOLD HIS HAND.I HAVE,ITS BEEN HARD,BUT THE LORD HAS GIVEN US ALL THE STRENGTH TO MAKE IT THROUGH.MY GRANDMA,ALWAYS SAID THE GOOD LORD WANT PUT ANYMORE ON YOU THAN WHAT YOU CAN BEAR.I BELIEVE THAT .IT WAS TIMES,I CRIED,LORD I CAN,T MAKE IT WITHOUT YOU.HE IS MY STRENGTH,IN TIME OF SORROW.DEB,I WILL BE PRAYING FAR YOU,FAR THE LORD TO STRENGTHEN YOU,AND THE LORD WILL.PRAY,YOU WILL HAVE A BETTER DAY,LOVE YOU,PATTY
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Dear Deb, I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it can be. I lost my 23 year old cat "cegee" she died in my arms. She had been sick, but was not in pain. Four days later I loss my Mother. She had many health problems. I'm still dealing with that and it's been 3 years ago. I was too busy helping my b/f with her husband dying from luckemia for the last 3 months of her life. I missed all that time with her. I was going to take her to her doctor that day and she didn't answer her phone. I knew something was wrong. I went over to my brother's to sit with my Dad so he could go and check on her and he found her. She had passed away alone. That's the biggest issue I have to deal with. She hated being alone. Then 3 weeks later we lost Ronnie to luckemia. I lost my mind by then. It took a while before i got it together. Going to help Julee deal with losing her husband, ending up helping me. I did this for a year and a half. I still miss my Mother so much to this day and I still cry about it. I talk to her as if she was sitting right next to me and that helps also. I pray to her everynight too. I'm sorry it took me so long to get back with you. I've been trying to stay off the computer so my muscle can heal. I'm now playing catch up on my emails. I'm sending you all my healing thoughts and love your way my sweet friend. I'm always here for you!!!! Many gental Hugs, Peach
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