I am a failed back surger, bowel and bladder neuropathy, polyneruopathy, RSD CRPS, Panic Disorder, Depression, PTSD, and Agorphobic, due to the surgery, Berroca's Aphasia. I am caring, loving, supportive, and strong, when I have to be. I just havn't been able to get back to my old self as yet. It has only been three years since my entire life has been taken away from me. I am seeing a big change in the past month as I have not been a hostage in my apartment. I am reaching out more, and helpin others, and it feels great. I will never cut people out of my lie even after wha happened to me, I fiure if I do, I would not have met all the new people that I am meeting recently. It has been really hard for me getting out, but I did it, and it has made a world of difference. I am so happy today. God is running my life, not me, Whew!!
I am a failed back surger, bowel and bladder neuropathy, polyneruopathy, RSD CRPS, Panic Disorder, Depression, PTSD, and Agorphobic, due to the surgery, Berroca's Aphasia. I am caring, loving, supportive, and strong, when I have to be. I just havn't been able to get back to my old self as yet. It has only been three years since my entire life has been taken away from me. I am seeing a big change in the past month as I have not been a hostage in my apartment. I am reaching out more, and helpin others,
I feel sad for all of Michael Jackson's family, and friends that he has died. I feel safer for alll children, and for his cildren as well.
I feel sad for all of Michael Jackson's family, and friends that he has died. I feel safer for alll children,
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Collette, So hope all goes well with the results of the test when you get the results. I am still just…
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October 9, 2009 1:37pm
I am so full of fear, and anxiety right now due to this medication, and my trying to get off of it.
It causes you to have anxiety more when on …
September 28, 2009 5:54pm
Hell Everyone,
Fist I want to say thank you to all that have left comments on my journal, and sorry that I didn't respond. I just didn't …
August 27, 2009 3:38pm
After all I have been through in the past almost 4 years now, I never thought it would come to this.
It is a good thing that I did find out what was …
August 10, 2009 1:16pm
I am a real mess right now, and can't get anything done. I just spent 2 days in bed that were so awful, and all I could do was sleep, and take my …
July 22, 2009 12:12pm
I just read a journal of a friend of mine who is saying that if tomorrow isn't beter she will end it all, and also said tha Gos calls His …
Starting your day with a hug.
You know you have my sympathy. I got my CMSP which means free heath care for a few months and I have a DR. appt thursday to see if I can talk to a neurologist about my MRI results so I can know exactly what it says and means. Right now I'm taking quercetin and bromelain. It's herbal and I don't know if it's working but I feel a little better. No icky side effects. I definitely don't want icky side effects. Big hugs to you and I'll keep sending things to make you smile.
love
collette
Thanks for all your support!
your post is great...write me
alice
Extra Hugs :) feel better soon. Take Care
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HAD A BACK SURGERY, AND WAS NOT GIVEN ANY PAIN MEDICATIONS AFTER THE SURGERY, AND ALSO WAS TAKEN OFF THE NARCOTICS I HAD BEEN ON FOR 2 YEARS WHICH MADE ME GO INTO WITHDRAWLS, AND NOT GIVEN ANY TREATMENT FOR THIS, DUE TO THE TRAUMA, AND SCUH AFTER A 8 HOUR SURGERY, I ENDED UP WITH PTSD, IN THE MOST SEVER FORM, AND WAAS NOT AWARE OF WHERE I WAS FOR OVER 1 YEAR NURSE DEBORAH
I HAVE SEASONAL DEPRESSION, AND IT ALWAYS MAKES IT EVEN HARDER ON MY DEPRESSION, WHICH IS BAD ENOUGH. I AM A FAILED BACK SURGERY, AND LIVE IN CONSTANT PAIN, WHICH HAS A PAIN CYCLE, ANXIETY DEPRESSION, AND PAIN, IT CAUSES THE DEPRESSION, AS DOES THE FACT THE I LOST MY FAMILY/FRIENDS DUE TO MY BEING THISS WAY, DISABLED. THEN NOT BEING ABLE TO BE A NURSE, MY LIFE WAS TAKEN AWAY FROM ME. SO THEM THIS TIME OF YEAR COME AROUND,AND IT MAKES IT WORSE, AND IT GETS DARKER SOONER, AND WELL IT IS JUST WO
BEEN IN RECOVERY FROM ALCOHOL/DRUG SINCE 1988, HAD A RELAPSE IN 1994, AND HAVE BEEN BACK IN THE PROGRAN SINCE THEN. HAVE HAD TO TAKE PAIN MEDS BUT HAVE NEVER EVER ABUSED THEM, IN FACT THEY DON'T WORK AT ALL ON THE PAIN THAT I HAVE. I AM GRATEFUL I DONT ABUSE THEM, IT'S GOD DOING IT, AND FEAR KEEPING ME FROM USING IT.
I have had insomnia for many years, and need some support, and people wo have the same problem.
My nane is Deborah, and I live with severe chronis pain, and have noe since October 2005. I had a Failed Back Surgery, and nothing I tkae helps the pain at all.
For my friend, also was a heroin addict
