I am a failed back surger, bowel and bladder neuropathy, polyneruopathy, RSD CRPS, Panic Disorder, Depression, PTSD, and Agorphobic, due to the surgery, Berroca's Aphasia. I am caring, loving, supportive, and strong, when I have to be. I just havn't been able to get back to my old self as yet. It has only been three years since my entire life has been taken away from me. I am seeing a big change in the past month as I have not been a hostage in my apartment. I am reaching out more, and helpin others, and it feels great. I will never cut people out of my lie even after wha happened to me, I fiure if I do, I would not have met all the new people that I am meeting recently. It has been really hard for me getting out, but I did it, and it has made a world of difference. I am so happy today. God is running my life, not me, Whew!!
I am a failed back surger, bowel and bladder neuropathy, polyneruopathy, RSD CRPS, Panic Disorder, Depression, PTSD, and Agorphobic, due to the surgery, Berroca's Aphasia. I am caring, loving, supportive, and strong, when I have to be. I just havn't been able to get back to my old self as yet. It has only been three years since my entire life has been taken away from me. I am seeing a big change in the past month as I have not been a hostage in my apartment. I am reaching out more, and helpin others,
I feel sad for all of Michael Jackson's family, and friends that he has died. I feel safer for alll children, and for his cildren as well.
I feel sad for all of Michael Jackson's family, and friends that he has died. I feel safer for alll children,
8 hugs given, 7 hugs received, 2 discussion posts, 1 journal post, 1 journal comment
nursedeborah commented on clint6’s journal entry Clint's withdrawal 12:07pm
Clint, I didn't realize you were on such a high dose. Why not go down slower to make it easier? Like…
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Hey you, just hang in there. We all need friends! Debbie…
nursedeborah and clint6 are now friends 1:24pm
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Clint, yes add me as a friend, we do have lots in common. Have a better day, just do it one day at a…
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November 18, 2009 1:12pm
I really can't believe how bad all of this really is. I am having so much anxiety that I can't even get to the grocery store! I just have no …
October 9, 2009 1:37pm
I am so full of fear, and anxiety right now due to this medication, and my trying to get off of it.
It causes you to have anxiety more when on …
September 28, 2009 5:54pm
Hell Everyone,
Fist I want to say thank you to all that have left comments on my journal, and sorry that I didn't respond. I just didn't …
August 27, 2009 3:38pm
After all I have been through in the past almost 4 years now, I never thought it would come to this.
It is a good thing that I did find out what was …
August 10, 2009 1:16pm
I am a real mess right now, and can't get anything done. I just spent 2 days in bed that were so awful, and all I could do was sleep, and take my …
Good to know you did it and are still around, give me hope! Thank you, hope it's ok to add you as a friend?
Thank you for the friendship request..Maybe we can chat soon...That is,,,is they ever fix my chat service on the site..:).I do hope that your doing better today...
Just wanted to let you know your not alone, i am sure you know that. I am getting off valium which I used to get off 4 mg. of Klonopin and now have the fun of getting off the Valium without any help from other meds. I am doing it slowly 2.5 mg every 2 weeks, so I know tha pain, right now! I hope yours gets better soon! xxx's
I just want to say that I'm so sorry that your going thru such a hard time right now. Hang it there,,it Will get better....(((((((Hugs to you))))))))
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HAD A BACK SURGERY, AND WAS NOT GIVEN ANY PAIN MEDICATIONS AFTER THE SURGERY, AND ALSO WAS TAKEN OFF THE NARCOTICS I HAD BEEN ON FOR 2 YEARS WHICH MADE ME GO INTO WITHDRAWLS, AND NOT GIVEN ANY TREATMENT FOR THIS, DUE TO THE TRAUMA, AND SCUH AFTER A 8 HOUR SURGERY, I ENDED UP WITH PTSD, IN THE MOST SEVER FORM, AND WAAS NOT AWARE OF WHERE I WAS FOR OVER 1 YEAR NURSE DEBORAH
I HAVE SEASONAL DEPRESSION, AND IT ALWAYS MAKES IT EVEN HARDER ON MY DEPRESSION, WHICH IS BAD ENOUGH. I AM A FAILED BACK SURGERY, AND LIVE IN CONSTANT PAIN, WHICH HAS A PAIN CYCLE, ANXIETY DEPRESSION, AND PAIN, IT CAUSES THE DEPRESSION, AS DOES THE FACT THE I LOST MY FAMILY/FRIENDS DUE TO MY BEING THISS WAY, DISABLED. THEN NOT BEING ABLE TO BE A NURSE, MY LIFE WAS TAKEN AWAY FROM ME. SO THEM THIS TIME OF YEAR COME AROUND,AND IT MAKES IT WORSE, AND IT GETS DARKER SOONER, AND WELL IT IS JUST WO
BEEN IN RECOVERY FROM ALCOHOL/DRUG SINCE 1988, HAD A RELAPSE IN 1994, AND HAVE BEEN BACK IN THE PROGRAN SINCE THEN. HAVE HAD TO TAKE PAIN MEDS BUT HAVE NEVER EVER ABUSED THEM, IN FACT THEY DON'T WORK AT ALL ON THE PAIN THAT I HAVE. I AM GRATEFUL I DONT ABUSE THEM, IT'S GOD DOING IT, AND FEAR KEEPING ME FROM USING IT.
I have had insomnia for many years, and need some support, and people wo have the same problem.
My nane is Deborah, and I live with severe chronis pain, and have noe since October 2005. I had a Failed Back Surgery, and nothing I tkae helps the pain at all.
For my friend, also was a heroin addict
I am a multiple
