Well since I have a hard time talking to my friends about whats going on with me one friend suggested I find an online support group so here I am. I am 15 months clean from a 10 year drug "career" but for some reason I don't feel any better about myself. I get down on myself a lot and beat my self up for things that aren't even my fault. I have so much going for me and everybody tells me that but I can't hear what they're saying. I dream of being a musician but so far it isn't working out and that's what gets me down the most. I know it sounds dumb but everybody keeps telling me I'm gonna be famous one day but I don't see it. I have many other problems and I just want to try to work them out so I can be happy.
Well since I have a hard time talking to my friends about whats going on with me one friend suggested I find an online support group so here I am. I am 15 months clean from a 10 year drug "career" but for some reason I don't feel any better about myself. I get down on myself a lot and beat my self up for things that aren't even my fault. I have so much going for me and everybody tells me that but I can't hear what they're saying. I dream of being a musician but so far it isn't working out and that's
Music Performance major, I love to play my guitar, my favorite pastime is to drive around listening to music. Surfing, skating, snowboarding, anything that gets my adrenaline rushing.
Music Performance major, I love to play my guitar, my favorite pastime is to drive around listening to
December 6, 2008 2:41am
Free from the cutting. Free from the hurt. Free from the shame. I'm 15 months free from the drugs but it isn't enough. …
December 4, 2008 4:37am
I'm going crazy!!!! I can't deal with all this shit at once. I thought getting sober would help me with my problems. I have 15 months now and …
November 28, 2008 5:03pm
It's been two days since I last cut. I want to hopefully go the rest of my life with out doing it but I'll have to take it a day at a …
Just wanted to say hi=)
I send you a present. In the box is TODAY. That is why it is called the present! Do yourself a wonderful favor and learn to self-talk. That means to just talk to yourself and it is okay. :) When you hear your own voice telling YOU what to do next, it will make such a difference in your life. It did mine. I still have times that I do that and it still works. It just helps line up my thoughts and get me going forward once again. Do be gentle with yourself this Christmas season. Find a quiet spot when necessary. Not everyone is rushing around. I know as I had to quit many years back. We have a much better Christmas in a quieter way. Do know that God is good ALL THE TIME. Dovelady o/ ~j~ ~j~
i had such a phase when i was about 13 months clean...first then it startted to get better... maybe it´s the same for u.. am here if u wanna talk. hugs
We control our own destiny, be free spirited.
Be safe. I know nothing I can say will solve the situation you are facing, but my thoughts are with you.
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I don't even remember when I started cutting. Ever since I was about 13 I havent been able to put more than 2-3 months together without cutting. Ive told people so many times in an attempt to stop that telling people doesnt even phase me anymore. I dont feel depressed. I dont feel anything. I cut cause I like to see blood and I want to feel pain when I know I should be feeling pain. I always try to cry instead but i havent cried in so long.
I battled with depression since I was very little. Now, it is not as bad as it used to be, but I still beat myself up all the time and I tend to be dramatic about everything and blame myself for mine and other peoples misfortune.
I had used drugs for many years and I used meth in particular for only about six months. I am 15 months clean from everything now and about two years clean from meth. Even though I only used meth for 6 months out of the 10 years I abused drugs and alcohol, it was the worst six months of my life. Every minute of they day was spent getting high, getting money to get high, or thinking about getting high. I'm here only to help now.
I used cocaine for about 8 years and I am now clean from it and all drugs for 15 months.
I was diagnosed with bipolar among other things while in rehab.
I was diagnosed with add and adhd when i was about 5 and up until a couple of years ago i was medicated for it. i dont know if its still an issue but im a recovering meth addict and refuse to take medicine for it. i think me being on some kind of add drug since i was 5 might have had something to do with my mental problems and drug addiction.
