Gerry09's Journal

I really do not know what to write in this blog but I think it could be a good thing to put down my thoughts and feelings in print so I can compare at a later date, and what better way to start than my 1st day on here!

So today then...I am feeling positive today I have been back at GA since the beginning of September this year after a few crazy months of going off the rails, I have been attending GA on and off for 5/6 years and since coming back in September I have been struggling to feel like myself again and get on a road to recovery. it just feels like I have been off  a bet as opposed to being free from a bet, if that makes any sense at all! However in the last few weeks I have felt the obsession to gamble being lifted from me, and I am starting to have the ability to live a normal life e.g carry money, read newspapers that sort of thing, but I know I have been here before and I need to begin the programme, I don't know why that thought scares me I know in my heart that the programme will help improve my life and start me off on a great passage of self discovery, yet I still have a little fear in me.

Sorry for rambling and hope that made even a little bit of sense to anyone who may have read it!